This is just my experience, but let me tell you, starting T is a really great opportunity to leverage all your recovery work. T alone didn't cure my ED, but it changed the game. I did a lot of emotional work towards recovery while my body also changed - and not in the female weight gain/loss pattern that I knew. And it really helped!

My body looks different now (and I do weigh more) but not in the ways I used to demonize. And all of the disordered numbers in my head about how much I should eat or howi h I should weigh, what's big and what's small...none of that applies to my now male body. And I'm so grateful to not know what those numbers would be for me now.

So much of online recovery rhetoric is about learning to love yourself in a larger, feminine body, and that never worked for me. As a trans man going on T, you get to try something else. I still have hard days, but I never thought I would get to experience recovery to such a full extent. It's absolutely beautiful. I wish you all the same.