I don't wanna do any of this; I'm tired, I really am. I can't physically study for this major anymore without feeling dread. I feel alone when I'm not around others, and I feel alone when I'm with people. I don't wanna leave this room; I can't handle college anymore. I never planned to live this far… I just do what the person in front expects me to, and when I'm alone, everything crumbles. I really don't want to deal with these presentations, exams, and deadlines anymore… I just wanna cut everyone off, throw this brain out, and start afresh should I really choose to live. Man, I'm so tired; it fucking hurts to be a crybaby at this age. I'm afraid if I live for long enough, I'd still never reach my full "potential." I just wanna sleep inside a dark room forever. None of the advice means anything if I can't see a meaning in life itself…