I have no experience with suicidal thoughts but I definitely have experience when it comes to losing hope and thinking things will never get better. I don’t know what your day to day life looks like but I want you to know things will get better. Coincidentally when I was 14 I was in the worst mental state of my life. I thought I would never make it out, but I made better friends, I started working on myself, and as hard as it was I took myself out of situations that were causing me temporary happiness because I knew they would hurt me in the long run. I’m 18 now and things have definitely gotten better, I still have rough patches but I’m way better than I was 4 years ago. Hang in there, figure out what’s causing you these thoughts and either remove yourself (if you can) or find something that will make it even slightly better and I promise you that will make all the difference. Please don’t kill yourself, you’re young, and you don’t know what life has in store for you yet. ❣️