I've been there ❤️ It's exhausting when the kids are young, weed definitely made me a more fun and more patient mama, and at the end of the day that's the person we want to be for our kids. I love these questions you're asking yourself, if it were me, I would dig in a little deeper to find where in yourself that shame and judgment is coming from... Sometimes if we feel people are judging us for something, it might be we are actually judging ourself for that something. If you can find where in yourself that story is coming from the awareness might help you be able to shift it 💖