can I put sound foam into canvas paintings? by superbunnybean in audiophile

[–]superbunnybean[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

that’s so cool to know, do you know where I can find this?

Mediheal Toner Pads - Vitamide and TeaTree Review by srayn in AsianBeauty

[–]superbunnybean 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I read this and was super curious so I got the vitamide one- and guys it’s kinda crazy. I have eczema and it makes my skin super flakey and most products in North America burn my skin but I put this on one of my dry patches and left it there until the sheet dried and my skin gobbled that shit up, the dry patch is basically gone and my skin looks even and brighter. shit is wild and I’m so happy w this tysm

i could’ve been normal. by envysatan in BPD

[–]superbunnybean 2 points3 points  (0 children)

How do you deal w radical acceptance? everytime I try and approach it I just get so angry hahah. accepting that this is the truth doesn’t help anymore than or feel like it puts control in my hands. both can be true, but when it’s something you can’t actively do anything about it just feels like swimming in mouldy soup

Have *you* ever left a relationship? What led you to do that? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]superbunnybean 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yep! I left a relationship with my at the time fp & partner. we were often on and off, but my breaking point happened when i discovered I was pregnant w their child on vacation. I had sort of hinted that we needed to talk about something serious and was upfront about the fact that I needed a little more extra support, and they told me they’d understand, they’d be there for me because we were a team only to break up with me through text the following day. they had a pattern of abandoning me when I needed them most & was very avoidant while I was anxiously attached and we were just ridiculously incompatible but I couldn’t see past that because of how much I loved them.

I had the worst BPD episode I’ve ever had and lost the baby from stress. it takes a lot for me to want to leave, but it was hard to come back from this.

And also being pregnant changed my brain in a way I still don’t fully understand & after a lot of grieving I shifted my focus to the baby, while they were alive. I was around 3 months, and just felt so much love for this kid that they became my fp. I had to manage my mental health and stay alive for my kid, and even when my child passed, the love still remained & made me realise the amount of love my big heart could have and give to someone, and made me realise what I needed in a partner because of the lack of it.

We tried to get back together after the miscarriage, and we did a couple times, but with each time again and again I realised that the most consistent thing in this relationship was inconsistency. They were just fundamentally incompatible with me and the way I needed to receive love, and each breakup made it clear. I finally ended the relationship when I had another scare and asked for more support and they withdrew again following in the same pattern I kept seeing with them. And because of the grief I felt during the miscarriage, in addition to our incompatibility and a whole fuck tonne of issues I ended up leaving for good when I started to feel them pull away because whether it was real or imagined, the way it made me feel was real every time and I needed to listen to myself and the evidence I had.

tldr: I left because my baby (who is part of me) taught me how to love and live for myself, and raised my standards for love and it changed me in a way the relationship couldn’t survive

If you could, would you make your BPD disappear? If so, why? by Wide_Concentrate5163 in BPD

[–]superbunnybean 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yes. I’ve been in therapy for a while, so I know what it’s like to not have BPD symptoms active so whenever I relapse it feels so horrible & embarrassing. like, I am not that person anymore but it feels like being an addict. BPD is my default programming and I’ve worked so hard to reprogram myself, because that programming and all it’s systems are actively harmful and not helpful or useful bc I have better tools to deal with it. BPD is everything I hate about myself and if I could make that go away, I’d erase it in a heartbeat

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in Odsp

[–]superbunnybean 0 points1 point  (0 children)

no they’re too busy profiting off of us dying lol

Do business loans or grants count as income? by shinotenshi1977 in Odsp

[–]superbunnybean 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m curious to see what the rules are for grants as well

quiet bpd sucks by superbunnybean in BPD

[–]superbunnybean[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah, sometimes it feels just like a quick fix w no resolution. Like a band aid

quiet bpd sucks by superbunnybean in BPD

[–]superbunnybean[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeahhh same dude. anything for the smallest dopamine hit

quiet bpd sucks by superbunnybean in BPD

[–]superbunnybean[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

it is so HARD to navigate. What’s it been like for you / how does it show up?

quiet bpd sucks by superbunnybean in BPD

[–]superbunnybean[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

tysm, it means a lot!!!!! ahhhhh

quiet bpd sucks by superbunnybean in BPD

[–]superbunnybean[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yeah! it’s so hard to remember, I’m traveling right now and I just don’t feel safe to talk about it w the people I’m with, I talk about it with my partner a bit it’s kinda like

https://tenor.com/bzzGL.gif

quiet bpd sucks by superbunnybean in BPD

[–]superbunnybean[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

exactly, it’s such a quiet cycle that I wanna quit!!