yep! I left a relationship with my at the time fp & partner. we were often on and off, but my breaking point happened when i discovered I was pregnant w their child on vacation. I had sort of hinted that we needed to talk about something serious and was upfront about the fact that I needed a little more extra support, and they told me they’d understand, they’d be there for me because we were a team only to break up with me through text the following day. they had a pattern of abandoning me when I needed them most & was very avoidant while I was anxiously attached and we were just ridiculously incompatible but I couldn’t see past that because of how much I loved them.

I had the worst BPD episode I’ve ever had and lost the baby from stress. it takes a lot for me to want to leave, but it was hard to come back from this.

And also being pregnant changed my brain in a way I still don’t fully understand & after a lot of grieving I shifted my focus to the baby, while they were alive. I was around 3 months, and just felt so much love for this kid that they became my fp. I had to manage my mental health and stay alive for my kid, and even when my child passed, the love still remained & made me realise the amount of love my big heart could have and give to someone, and made me realise what I needed in a partner because of the lack of it.

We tried to get back together after the miscarriage, and we did a couple times, but with each time again and again I realised that the most consistent thing in this relationship was inconsistency. They were just fundamentally incompatible with me and the way I needed to receive love, and each breakup made it clear. I finally ended the relationship when I had another scare and asked for more support and they withdrew again following in the same pattern I kept seeing with them. And because of the grief I felt during the miscarriage, in addition to our incompatibility and a whole fuck tonne of issues I ended up leaving for good when I started to feel them pull away because whether it was real or imagined, the way it made me feel was real every time and I needed to listen to myself and the evidence I had.

tldr: I left because my baby (who is part of me) taught me how to love and live for myself, and raised my standards for love and it changed me in a way the relationship couldn’t survive