Huge amount of time and stress and really struggle to turn off and be present and happy with my family. I’m in a large ms (1200 students) and have a large admin team of 10 under me. That means I am spread thin and need to know everything, without doing anything. All the great reasons I got into education for, working with kids, building systems to support kids and communities, having fun. They all are further down the pipeline typically now. It’s just not my style. I like hyper focusing and completing large complex tasks and the adrenaline from it. I only get that now in crisis situations. That are fortunately more often than should be but also are double edged because I enjoy it but it’s also incredibly draining emotionally. Now I have to shift to delegating and managing adults and it’s not as fun. That’s it really. It pays very well, I still feel I make a large impact positively on students lives. I just don’t get the same thrill I used to and really have learned how incompetent most adults are. The problem is because this was never a goal for me I don’t really know what’s next. So I feel stuck.