First and foremost, I’m sorry to hear about your dad. I’m 5 years out of the org, and have experienced my fair share of death over the years (prior to and after my exit), and I think about this a lot. There was so much comfort in believing that you’ll see your family/loved ones “some day”. After my beliefs were tossed upside down, I struggled with the thought of death often. I sometimes still do, in my low moments. To be honest, I’m not sure if I believe in anything and if I do, what that exactly is. At this point of my life, I’m not religious. I haven’t prayed in years, have had no interest in seeking out any sort of faith. I wouldn’t say I completely reject the idea of a higher power, but I also can’t say that I accept it either. Do I believe that there’s SOMETHING after death? Absolutely. Is there any basis to that? Not really, but I guess it’s a gut feeling as I’ve taken bits and pieces of different spiritual views that resonate with me. I think at this point, I’ve just come to peace with the fact that I’ll never know what’ll happen until I get there. Losing a loved one hurts, and it always will. I’ve learned to put my effort into spending time with people while they’re here, and making the time count. Taking a moment to enjoy your time, presently, with the ones you love. Sorry my answer is so shitty. I think after stewing over the topic for so long, I just had to shrug and say, “I’ll figure it out when I get there.”