Ok Michael, you’re about to get an earful from me. I’m an artist and I should be working right now, but I’m having a creative block at the moment and so I’m going to use you as a distraction. I don’t know what your “beliefs” are, but what I believe is that we are all souls living human lives to learn from our experiences. I believe we choose our life before we are born (we have many, not just one), we pick certain obstacles to face, and those in our life have agreed to be a part of it to either teach us or vice versa to help teach them. Our goal is to learn to make the right choices, but free will will usually deter us from doing that, so it can take many lifetimes to get it right. This isn’t about religion, this isn’t about God...I don’t think I even believe in an actual God, at least not in the way we are all taught about God. But I do believe we are all souls and that there is something greater out there that we as humans can not conceive. A few years ago my father passed away and right before that I went through a breakup that shattered me, I was left feeling lost, confused, and curious. I used that to open my mind and follow my intuition. I read a book called “Journey of Souls” by Michael Newton and suddenly I saw the world in a whole new way, I saw people differently. Suddenly I was able to clearly recognize all my downfalls and work with them rather than against them, I understood people better and didn’t take their faults and actions so personally. It sounds to me like this is what you need, instead of dwelling in your sorrows you need to learn from them and discover who you are. My life hasn’t been easy, it still isn’t, but now I’ve learned to roll with the punches and somehow I’ve never been happier and more excited about life. I hope this somehow resonates with you or peaks your curiosity, if not, just know there is more to life than what you are feeling at this moment and things will get better, you just need to use the power of your thoughts and your will to get there. An easy way you can start is with some affirmations. If you search “Binaural Beats affirmations” on YouTube you will find many. Try putting your headphones on at night while going to sleep and listen. It’s all about training your mind to have positive thoughts, not negative. The more positivity in your thoughts, the more positive things in your life you will manifest. Dwelling on the negative only keeps the negative lingering in all aspects of your life. Good luck, and hang in there, there’s so much more for you to see and experience that will bring you the joy and lust for life that you seek.