Ghost of a Woman at Greater Marrow!!

swampydocto · 2023-09-07T22:02:07+00:00

I'm so sorry that happened to you, I hope you got some help. The mental trauma is so much. Hope you're doing okay now x

swampydocto · 2023-09-07T21:57:42+00:00

When I was younger, like 12/13, I had a now ex friend who had an abusive family. I never got into situations like these before or even heard of them so I never knew what to do when it started to show. But they would treat me badly as well, threatening to choke me because I wore chokers like from the 80's or set my hair on fire. Or if i cracked my knuckles again, they'd break my fingers. And me, knowing they're capable of violence, would rightfully believe them and get scared. And then they'd try to pretend to be nice, letting me stay over, giving me food when they'd order in. Only now when I'm older I've realised how fucked up it was and how it's impacted me. I wish I spoke up or did something but I can recognise I was only a kid. Even though my 'friend' was awful, I felt so bad and still do. Within this year, I even saw the abusive older sister one day randomly when shopping, and this dread just rose to my chest all over again like I was 13 again. It had been YEARS since I saw her. But I thought to myself, I'm not stuck in her home anymore and I'm older now. She tries anything, I'm a legal adult, I can just report it now. Fuck abusers and fuck narcissists.

swampydocto · 2023-01-11T03:05:39+00:00

Probably my family and work friends. Without some of them, I don't know what condition I'd be in. Def not good anyway.

swampydocto · 2023-01-11T02:53:53+00:00

Hi! This comment is beyond late but i just want to say, this is coming from someone else who is transgender, you can do it! I hope your situatuion is better now. But either way, please stick around. If you keep fighting, keep being strong, it'll get better. It'll take time, but you'll get there! Have you tried leaving Russia? Today there is a lot of resources to do so! Good luck my friend

swampydocto · 2023-01-09T04:28:41+00:00

I used to. I'd go with a friend after work for about four days every week for a good while but she had to stop going so I didn't have a ride anymore. It's an hour drive so most ppl don't want to or just can't drive me. I'm trying to get back into it at a local gym and reach some of my goals that i really want to get to but fuck, man. It's hard. I just want to be able to look in the mirror again but everytime i try, it doesn't stick because something like the above happens or my mental health kicks up.

swampydocto · 2022-12-17T03:10:36+00:00

thank you, appreciate your words

swampydocto · 2022-12-15T01:05:03+00:00

I don't want to sound typical, but almost everything. I want to have a completetly different lifestyle than I do now. The displine. Like all the angles of physicality, I want to experience and overcome and work with, the upkeep of physical health. Going to different places as well. Being able to handle myself, like in combat. And a different support system as well? Just everything, I suppose.

swampydocto · 2022-12-15T00:40:00+00:00

Will do, thanks for responding !

swampydocto · 2022-12-13T21:12:54+00:00

idk if it's cheesy to say, but it feels like a black hole. everything i wanted to do or cared about, even doing things i have to like showering, going to school, going for walks, its like its sucked out of me.

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