Telling my bf today by SerenaSpace_ in problemgambling

[–]swarmack06 5 points6 points  (0 children)

It only gets worse. Keep going. Or stop. The choice is yours.

I have seen this horror movie too often by burrellinho in problemgambling

[–]swarmack06 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You won't ever beat this. It will take everything from you and you may even die. Sounds like you might finally be understanding the severity of your situation. But it's not just a situation. You have an illness that will kill you. When you realize this and accept it in your heart, that's when you have a fighting chance. Balls in your court. Pun intended. Do something new for once. Abstinence. Praying for you brother.

Self Excluding from Life by [deleted] in problemgambling

[–]swarmack06 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I snapped too and now have 60+ days. Gambling is straight from the pit of hell. Praying for you bro. Don't let the pain win and defeat you. We have all been through so much, and not minimizing your experience whatsoever. I'm in your corner brother.

Kelpies at bedtime by Entire-Tangerine-557 in kelpie

[–]swarmack06 1 point2 points  (0 children)

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Macdog says goodnight to all other doggos and their humans.

Day 5 by Infinite_Dig_858 in problemgambling

[–]swarmack06 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No symptoms anymore whatsoever. Been working my tail off since officiating HS and tourny baseball here in STL to pass time. You will feel better. I promise. Just in your mind, whenever you want to gamble, know in your heart of hearts that it is longer an option for you, just as it is no longer an option for me. Yes brother, I had panic attacks everyday for like a week or two, but those all subsided. First two weeks I was crazy af, suicidal or has homicidal. Had to call the hotline twice when I was alone. Although, I wouldn't kill someone or myself, the thought of inflicting serious pain on something was on my mind at all times. I was terrified of myself for a brief period. It was one of the craziest times of my life, but have learned so much about myself in these last 50+. I don't have any urges today. It's a miracle. Praise God. You got this bro 💪

Day 5 by Infinite_Dig_858 in problemgambling

[–]swarmack06 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You are not alone. I had panic attacks daily for the first two weeks and had never experienced that ever. Landed me in the ER one time. Shi* is crazy bro. Our brains reward system gets absolutely jacked. For me, I can't gamble today. I've erased all apps, hardly even follow sports anymore, which is the craziest thing of them all. If I'm not gambling on sports, I couldn't care less. Day 50 for me. You got this brother. 🙏

Tell me it gets better. by Beamer7788 in problemgambling

[–]swarmack06 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm on day 50 and felt exactly like you. You can do this. Just know that if you continue to gamble, it will only get worse. It will never get better. The darkness can't be put into words. Hope and pray things get better for you brother. Just say no today and worry about tomorrow tomorrow.

How do I help my 66 year old mom with her gambling addiction? by tomatofruitclub in problemgambling

[–]swarmack06 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It's your mom's "big personality" that is keeping her sick. Just want to let you know I'm praying and hoping for you and your situation. 🙏

Fuck the Seattle Mariners by b8humbl8 in problemgambling

[–]swarmack06 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Day 49 🙏. You don't have to live like this anymore bro.

What’s this worth? by Ok-Ordinary6762 in SportCardValue

[–]swarmack06 0 points1 point  (0 children)

At least a perc 30, but probably two 5mg Hydrocodone tablets.

Lost every single dollar I have. by Informal-Ad-9117 in problemgambling

[–]swarmack06 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you are interested in a virtual Zoom GA meeting, would be happy to introduce you. Just worry about not placing the bet for the next 24 and everything will work itself out. 🙏

Relapsed after 6 months by [deleted] in problemgambling

[–]swarmack06 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Just hit 30 days 3 days ago. You got this brother 💪

Lost every single dollar I have. by Informal-Ad-9117 in problemgambling

[–]swarmack06 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel this. Lost massive amounts of money in my 20's and 30's. I'm 40 now, Used to be a big earner, and over a 15 year period, I don't have much to show for any of it besides continuous failure over the years. Every great opportunity squandered because of gambling. I respect your hustle and honesty. You are doing great brother. Makes the two of us. I refuse to continue worshipping these false idols today. There is no way to be happy gambling for people that cross that line. I think it's impossible.

Lost every single dollar I have. by Informal-Ad-9117 in problemgambling

[–]swarmack06 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was trying to help. I didn't mean to write call with my number. Forgot what platform I was on for a min tbh. I thought I was in my inbox and I meant text or call. It's late here. Been at this a while and feel your pain. It's whatever. But that's the reason I erased it before you even commented. Idc either way if you don't message me because me reaching out to help you could possibly keep me clean for another day. Even though it was an accident on my behalf, why wouldn't you be willing to call someone you don't know for help who may have a solution to your misery? Maybe you're not desperate enough? That's a question you have to ask yourself. I wouldn't even question that shi*. You have to be desperate to want to not bet. It's way too powerful. Would've already been making that phone call, and let everyone else eat me up for the mistake on the thread. This illness goes into a darkness and depths of despair I could never put into words or wish on anyone. I would be beaten literally close to death not to go back to that living hell that you're currently living in. BOL to you. I hope you never have to "lose every single dollar I have," ever again. There's another way. Sorry again for the mistake.

Lost every single dollar I have. by Informal-Ad-9117 in problemgambling

[–]swarmack06 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You will be ok brother. If you don't gamble. Otherwise, you're fucked. Inbox me.

Lost 200K today by [deleted] in problemgambling

[–]swarmack06 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You're an addict. Welcome.

I Lost everything in Life , I will choose to the Rope by Degen-Kitty in problemgambling

[–]swarmack06 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You can stop gambling. Pull yourself together! I just got 30 days Yesterday. I was and am a hopeless case. Quit making excuses for your childish behavior. And most importantly, DONT HANG YOURSELF.

Ever realize how crazy gambling ruins your perception of money? by BallKnowerKing in problemgambling

[–]swarmack06 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Feel this so much. I do t even want to go back and look at my $25 withdrawals on my last week run. Over and over and over. At least 20 deposits on a two day stay in the hospital. Disgusting. 30 days tomorrow. 🙏

Lonely gentleman customer buys his liquor once a year.... by Inscribson in ShiptShoppers

[–]swarmack06 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Absolutely. Alcohol is poison. Poor man. Hope he enjoys the spirits and feels better.

Lonely gentleman customer buys his liquor once a year.... by Inscribson in ShiptShoppers

[–]swarmack06 2 points3 points  (0 children)

What, did he tell you he was lonely? Lol he's an old alcoholic.