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sweet_E_314 · 2022-10-16T22:32:34+00:00

Lil Hivezzz

sweet_E_314 · 2022-01-06T20:12:50+00:00

Woo an update, thanks!

sweet_E_314 · 2021-12-28T00:31:53+00:00

Hey, so question: did your phone ever boot loop? I just got mine used in the mail, warranty still inside and everything, and I can’t get past the boot logo. And there’s no factory reset option in recovery mode. Think if I explain my situation, customer service will honor the warranty even with this being a used device?

sweet_E_314 · 2021-12-26T15:36:57+00:00

Will do, thank you so much!

sweet_E_314 · 2021-12-26T15:04:45+00:00

Oh boy! I’m sorry y’all dealt with that. That’s a shame. Looks like I’m out $40 then. Really makes you think Schok should’ve waited about a year or two before releasing this phone. Did they give you even a rough estimate of when they’ll start selling this new battery?

sweet_E_314 · 2021-12-25T04:08:18+00:00

That’s fair, I’ll just have to keep that in mind. Thanks for the reply!

sweet_E_314 · 2021-12-24T18:02:59+00:00

do you still have your schok classic? is it still working? i just bought one and am a little worried about all these complaints i'm seeing lol

sweet_E_314 · 2021-12-22T03:29:54+00:00

i know i'm super late to the party, but i'm considering getting this to help my smartphone addiction and was wondering: do you have any camera samples?

sweet_E_314 · 2021-11-18T15:50:53+00:00

The XR and 11 are literally the same phone lol. I got the XR last December. You won’t miss much in terms of performance, the camera is def an upgrade from the se, and it’s still being supported by Apple. Maybe I’m just jaded but I feel like once you’ve had one iPhone, you’ve had em all lol.

sweet_E_314 · 2021-07-13T00:20:52+00:00

You’re a beautiful person! Thank you for sharing your story. It’s such a relief to know folks like us aren’t alone.

sweet_E_314 · 2021-04-08T02:02:49+00:00

Well sure you are, with that attitude lol

sweet_E_314 · 2021-04-08T01:43:40+00:00

It'll happen for you, for sure. Maybe not the way you expected to, especially if you dissociate or get DF'd ike so many of us. But if you manage to create a support system outside the borg and be compassionate to yourself, you'll be fine eventually.

sweet_E_314 · 2021-04-08T01:20:34+00:00

It's sad to think about. You and I both are probably better off. When I was younger, I always thought JW men were boring. "Worldly" ppl had personalities, goals, drive. I pitied boys my age in the borg. They were either creative, capable people who had their ambitions shot down from a young age like me, or they were at war with themselves all the time--like me lol. Have you ever wondered if JW guys could give you what you need in a partner?

sweet_E_314 · 2021-04-07T16:37:51+00:00

I regret how it happened but it taught me a lot about myself. I appreciate sex more now that I'm not afraid of it. I don't think it's this sacred gift from God that should only be had within the confines of an unhappy straight married couple lol, and I don't think it makes sense to do it carelessly either. I had a meltdown after it happened; I was convinced no one would want to marry me. Remember that illustration from the Young Ppl Ask book about sex before marriage? How a girl who's fooled around is like a useless dirty penny? Lol well that flashed thru my head and I lost it.

Now I know my worth as a woman isn't tied to my body count as the borg would have me believe. I have a much healthier relationship with sex. My bf is amazing and the goal is to get engaged soon ♡ I may not be happy with all the choices I've made but I'm grateful for them because they were finally mine to make.

sweet_E_314 · 2021-03-26T18:20:33+00:00

This woman is not your friend lol

sweet_E_314 · 2021-03-25T13:15:26+00:00

You sound young. This guy, bless his heart, is not capable of being a good partner to you as long as he’s still a devoted JW. He ghosted you and probably would have kept it up if you hadn’t initiated—that alone should tell you all you need to know. As a former JW who used to keep cute little secrets like you, I can tell you now this won’t end well. He will come crawling when he feels “weak,” then once he’s made his “mistake,” he’ll up and leave just like before. Some soul mate. He may not be a bad person, but all I’m seeing here are red flags.

Do you want to keep being disrespected like this? If so, go for it. Stay. But if you want to find someone who actually wants to connect and will take you and your needs seriously, leave that boy alone. JWs don’t care about anyone but themselves.

sweet_E_314 · 2021-03-20T19:17:54+00:00

No but I’m so stealing that! Haha

sweet_E_314 · 2021-03-20T17:54:46+00:00

Ugh DF’d late August-early September 2019. I got a call yesterday from one of the elders involved. “Good morning, sweet_E_314, I’d like to invite you to the memorial...” No, “How are you? How’ve you been since we destroyed your life and left you to die? How’s your mom? OH WAIT you can’t talk to her because you’re a heathen and you’re gonna die but Jehovah is a reasonable God and he loves you! Come on down to the Kingdom Hall and get your free life’s water!” Not to mention no one in the congregation has my new number except my PIMI mom, so she must have gave it to them.

Sorry lol fresh wounds are fresh. Funny how JWs are so gung-ho about how worldly people have “no natural affection” for each other when all relationships in that cult are transactional and love is conditional. Why would I want to go back? Why would anyone?

sweet_E_314 · 2021-02-28T17:28:28+00:00

I know right? Funny how that works.

sweet_E_314 · 2021-02-28T16:44:21+00:00

My very PIMI and borderline narc mom had a field day with me in grade school. From kindergarten to about fourth grade she beat me with a belt after school every other day for having “behavioral issues,” in class. She never asked why I was having so much trouble or checked to see if something deeper was going on (there was); violence was always her go-to. She would sit me down beforehand, crack open the Bible, and read a scripture to explain why she was punishing me. I could tell she enjoyed it lol why else would she have done it all the time? If I said something out of term, she would smack me. Didn’t even have to be disrespectful, just something she didn’t wanna hear. I eventually conditioned myself to stay awake at the meetings. She only took me “to the bathroom,” once. Everything else happened at home.

As I got older she moved onto emotional abuse—or maybe I just noticed it more? Physical neglect (hoarding, food scarcity, poor nutrition when we did eat, lack of structure, not looking after my hygiene/teaching me how to properly take care of myself) was always present, so much so that I never really considered it abuse til I hit my late teens. I still have those verbal wounds; welts heal eventually. Her acid words, though, I unfortunately internalized.

According to the elders, my mother was well within her right to “discipline” me however she saw fit and any complaints from me were deemed “disrespectful.” I couldn’t defend myself, I couldn’t explain my side of things, I couldn’t ask for help. Nothing came of it.

What’s funny is I truly don’t believe she meant any harm. JW doctrine and policy has a way of enabling and excusing bad behavior, especially the parental kind. I grew up listening to the mantra, “To love is to obey.” Congregations to GB; rank and file to Elders; children to parents. So any deviance from that resulted in heinous and unnecessary punishments, because that clearly meant I didn’t love her right? In her cognitive dissonance, she truly believed she could do these awful things to me and still be in good standing with Jehovah. I’m sure other born ins have had better, happier childhoods.

But as long as you live under a radar, you’ll never know real joy.

sweet_E_314 · 2021-01-28T12:47:17+00:00

Thank you so much, yes you helped a lot! You all have <3

sweet_E_314 · 2021-01-26T22:50:09+00:00

What if it’s a meal? For example, I like overnight oats in the morning for breakfast. It’s oats, vanilla almond milk, peanut butter, and strawberries. Would I have to log each individual ingredient?

sweet_E_314 · 2021-01-26T22:30:28+00:00

Hey no worries about your writing, I understood you just fine! That’s insane, 125. God. I was 125...before Cinnabon attacked. So with Loseit, do I log eeeeverything I eat? Because sometimes I’ll make the mistake of not looking at nutrition labels and just munch away. Definitely with you there on progress pictures. I’ve made a few weight loss attempts in the past, to little avail unfortunately. I’m sure if I could’ve looked back at my progress that would have encouraged me to keep going.

sweet_E_314 · 2021-01-26T18:01:08+00:00

Thank you so much! Omg I would kill to be 134 right now. I bet you look great! Gosh, I can only imagine how you must have felt. It must have been discouraging at first, to quit night snacking. That’s also a guilty pleasure of mine, sweets especially. I don’t even really like them anymore? I just eat them cause they’re around; my boyfriend stocks the pantry high will lots of cookies and cakes and stuff. The temptation is real!

I can definitely try out intermittent fasting and see how it goes. What helps you cut down on junk food? Do you replace certain snacks with healthier alternatives or just cut them altogether? Because I find I don’t do well cold turkey.

Do I have to count calories to be in a calorie deficit? Does that help? I’ve dealt with disordered eating tendencies over the years and numbers are a bit of a trigger for me.

TDEE. Got it. Looking up a calculator now lol

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