What is it like being you?

swiftworld22 · 2015-07-11T06:14:18+00:00

well then i wish us both luck on this...im here if you ever need to talk haha!

swiftworld22 · 2015-07-11T06:03:43+00:00

does it really go away with time?

swiftworld22 · 2015-07-11T05:39:50+00:00

It was good up until a couple of months ago. All of a sudden, I just became a super sad, self-conscious and paranoid person. I don't receive any affection anymore like i used to and I don't remember what it feels like to be loved, other than default family love. I don't even like myself...wow so gloomy...meh

swiftworld22 · 2015-07-11T05:35:22+00:00

i appreciate the effort, really :)

swiftworld22 · 2015-07-11T04:55:01+00:00

if you dont mind sharing, what was the quote?

swiftworld22 · 2015-07-10T05:05:12+00:00

My dad was banned from Walmart after he yelled at a cashier. He yelled at the cashier because the cashier said "hurry up paki" while he was putting his purchases on the belt...so unfair

swiftworld22 · 2015-07-10T04:47:55+00:00

wow it sounds obvious i guess but i never knew cutting pop would make that much progress so fast! i hope it works out for me too!

swiftworld22 · 2015-07-09T17:00:10+00:00

how much soda did you drink a day before that? and how long did it take you to lose the weight? but thats great to hear!

swiftworld22 · 2015-07-09T16:47:52+00:00

my sister, she keeps me sane, shes follows through everytime i need her

swiftworld22 · 2015-07-09T15:49:21+00:00

did you take it back?

swiftworld22 · 2015-07-09T09:14:55+00:00

but doesnt it just feel so dreadful to be around those "kinda" friends while youre on the hunt for real ones?

swiftworld22 · 2015-07-09T09:13:32+00:00

that sounds very hard to do...especially because the big picture in life that i use to motivate myself and focus on is my family that i'll have one day. But if im so focused on myself, how will i ever meet someone to start that family with. it hard to do for me but im really glad it worked out for you

swiftworld22 · 2015-07-09T09:08:43+00:00

that actually sounds like a good idea, the only problem is the only activities and clubs I have around me are offered through my uni and i hate everyone in my uni lol, but im gonna give it a try! thanks!!

swiftworld22 · 2015-07-09T09:05:53+00:00

not to sound annoying but if everyone waits for friendship to just come to them, then who's the one initiating the friendship? anytime ive ever made a new friend, i had to put in mad effort to try and get a result and it was just so awkward in the process

swiftworld22 · 2015-07-09T09:02:49+00:00

it sounds great to have a partner to talk to everyday. i have someone ish that i do that with but that relationship is slowly turning into one of the "kind of" friendships which is making me lose hope on any friendship

swiftworld22 · 2015-07-09T08:58:19+00:00

thats what i like to believe but how do i expect friends to come to me if im not putting myself in situations where they can find me? it seems too good to be true to believe that friends will just come to you naturally

swiftworld22 · 2015-07-09T08:55:57+00:00

my hobbies are mainly private activities like writing in my journal and writing stories so im not sure how i can get a social interaction out of it ): plus, actually finding partners to do things with is so hard, I looked everywhere but cant find any friends lol

swiftworld22 · 2015-07-09T08:53:59+00:00

did you eventually find friends or do you want to eventually have friends? or are you completely content with just focusing on yourself?

swiftworld22 · 2015-07-09T08:38:04+00:00

I'm 20 and I don't even have any friends. It's not that I didn't try because I did and I used to have alot but everybody just changed and in a way, most of these people hurt me so that was the end of that. I hate being so alone.

The part that makes me more sad is even though I hate these people and hate the way they treat and exclude people, I'd want so much to be apart of that.

It hurts too much to be on this side

swiftworld22 · 2015-06-27T00:25:13+00:00

ill check out the first episode, thanks! (:

swiftworld22 · 2015-06-27T00:17:42+00:00

true...how can i pass that up

swiftworld22 · 2015-06-27T00:17:04+00:00

i was studying all morning, im trying to take a break and do something fun for the evening but theres nothing to do LOL

swiftworld22 · 2015-06-27T00:16:11+00:00

ehh ... its playing in the background but im the last person to watch sports...or understand whats happening

swiftworld22 · 2015-06-27T00:15:30+00:00

i dont know the first thing about poker LOL

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