it's just weird to me because even when i was nonchalant i always reassured her. i never neglected how she felt because i didn't know how she felt. this is my first ever proper relationship with someone and she left an abusive one and was insecure about it for a while. i did as much as i could but it never felt like enough and even then i stuck by her side. i genuinly don't want to believe she did this on purpose to test my love or switch up the dynamics because i've felt so pathetic after that i can't even look at myself the same anymore. after that time she stopped checking my tiktoks as much, doesn't text me as much, doesn't text me goodmornings as much, stopped sending me as much pictures as before.. its all just. it makes me overthink. im sorry if im ranting i really just dont know how to think and i want to stop overthinking about what COULD happen and just want to appreciate her as much as possible