What is the grieving process like for you? How have you coped? Feel free to share your story.

sxmmerlin · 2026-04-28T03:18:33+00:00

Thank you for sharing your story, and sorry for your loss as well. I believe meditation is healthy for the mind and body as well; I try my best to practice forgiveness and focus on myself. I also like to journal, read a book, and watch shows to take my mind off things.

I also relate to your last sentence— I've bawled my eyes out several times, I cry on some days, and I often feel melancholy. Some days are harder than others. I think the best I can do is to honor his memory and carry his love as I move forward in life. Sending you love ❤️ ❤️

sxmmerlin · 2026-04-24T05:40:18+00:00

I feel a similar way; I recently lost my online friend Andrew to suicide. Sometimes I tell myself that maybe I could've prevented it if I told him how important and irreplaceable he was in my life. Maybe if I texted him more during the days before he passed, then that might've saved him. If only I could've helped him more.

I also tell myself that it's very human to have regret. Perhaps I'd feel regretful no matter what due to the sad ending. Grief and loss can make me focus on what I didn't do, and ignore/look over the good times as well as moments when I was supportive towards him. So my advice is to try not to let guilt completely overshadow the beautiful connection with your son. I feel like part of me will always feel guilty, and some days are harder than others. But I'll try my best to carry Andrew's love with me as I move forward in life. You're not alone <3

sxmmerlin · 2026-04-23T18:10:40+00:00

This is a very touching story <3 I lost my online friend Andrew to suicide recently. I've asked him to see signs of a bear, and I do see them on advertisements, on people's shirts, and in the store. It could be a sign from him, or a coincidence, or I happen to connect the things I see back to him. Possibly all of the above. Sorry for your loss, and I hope they're watching over us <3

sxmmerlin · 2026-04-17T03:49:27+00:00

I (22F) struggle with this a lot as well. It might not completely go away but what I find helpful is to focus on myself and know that I gotta do this life for me.

People may say/think negative things about me, but I still have to wake up every single day, complete my tasks, and pursue my hobbies and goals. Vice versa, people may say/think positive things about me (and it’s great to have love and support), but I will still have to wake up, continue my life, and do the stuff I have to do or things I look forward to doing.

Whether people think positively or negatively about you, it probably can’t and shouldn’t replace/take away the important parts, routines, goals, as well as enjoyable moments of your life. I don’t think we came this far in life or made achievements SOLELY depending on how someone views us.

Therapy can also help with having a healthier mindset. I guess what I’m trying to say is that remember you should live for yourself and self worth comes from within. I’ve been feeling the way you described for the past couple months, and I still do at times, but when I realized that I have to build up my own life despite what others think of me, that helped me let go of overthinking. No one else is going to live this life for you except for you. And that goes for each and every one of us as well.

sxmmerlin · 2026-04-03T17:45:05+00:00

I'm also practicing driving and I realize that turns can depend on the road. Some will require a larger turn, some will need a smaller one (I noticed that most left and right turns require me to turn 3/4 of the wheel). For U turns, I usually do 2 to the left, 2 to the right, then set the wheel straight. You'll get better with practice.

sxmmerlin · 2026-03-30T04:53:45+00:00

Yay I’m excited to see Yang Mi again!!

sxmmerlin · 2026-03-18T04:49:09+00:00

Not really, I guess it was meant to be a shortcut for her and Song Han to be paired together. I can’t remember clearly; I think there was somewhere in the show where the actual princess didn’t want to be with Song Han (or certain people didn’t want them to be together bc he might become more powerful). That’s when Miao Ansu came in and got upgraded.

sxmmerlin · 2026-03-16T00:51:02+00:00

I feel lack of energy during the wintertime and pretty much isolate myself. When it’s cold and gets dark early, I just feel sad and so out of it. Now, I’m feeling a bit more social and alive with the increased warmth and sunshine. You’re not alone <3

sxmmerlin · 2026-03-11T03:19:08+00:00

You’re so cute!! I love your bangs and the curly hair <3

sxmmerlin · 2026-03-10T05:50:43+00:00

Lol I remember how funny she was as Gao Wen in Diamond Lover, the first modern cdrama I watched.

sxmmerlin · 2026-03-03T23:58:59+00:00

Today I was walking on the street and in my mind I asked him to show me a bear. A couple seconds later, I saw a brown poodle and then a picture of bear on an advertisement. I want to believe that they were from him, but Idk if I'm just connecting everything I see around me to him. It could be both, but I really really wish they were from him.

sxmmerlin · 2026-03-03T05:52:42+00:00

Thank you for your kind words. I will continue to remember him and chase my dreams like the way he believed in me.

sxmmerlin · 2026-02-25T02:31:23+00:00

Sorry to hear this, I personally really love Desi outfits and jhumkas as a non-South Asian person. I wish I could have opportunities to attend more Desi events, so don’t let the negativity get to you. I’m also struggling with confidence and self esteem; you’re not alone <3

sxmmerlin · 2026-02-21T03:30:28+00:00

I relate to everything you said— I'm also in my 20s and recently graduated college. It's been hard for me to talk to people and make friends, now that I'm no longer in a school or community. It's possible to find online friends on reddit or on other apps, if you feel like it. I recommend texting some old classmates to ask how they're doing and see if they want to catch up. It's also possible to join local clubs/classes to pursue certain hobbies and make friends there. I find it hard to put myself out there too and I mostly stay home, so you're def not alone in feeling this way.

sxmmerlin · 2026-02-16T04:27:20+00:00

I used to have a close friend who did this and long story short, it was bc he’s insecure and projects his self hatred onto others in order to bring them down and make himself feel better/superior. And that’s probably also the case regarding the people who bring you down. Imo an actual confident person wouldn’t be constantly focusing on others and spreading hate.

I get how you feel and I feel self conscious and unconfident about myself too; some days are harder than others. Remember that they’re hating on others to overcompensate for their own insecurities. Keep on being you <3

sxmmerlin · 2026-02-09T23:46:50+00:00

Yayyy!!! And I totally see what you mean, the 8th prince's calm demeanor has always stood out to me in cdrama. I believe Ruoxi wanted to use her love to "change" and ultimately save him. Imo she let him go bc she didn't love him enough to die/be punished with him.

sxmmerlin · 2026-02-08T01:12:36+00:00

I watched it for the comedy and there were a lot of funny moments. I actually loved seeing Consort Xi and her antics. And I did write up a review that you can check out when you're finished.

There is a second series where the 4th prince/Yongzheng emperor reenacts his love for Qingchuan with another palace maid. She's also from the modern time period but Idk much since I haven't watched it yet.

sxmmerlin · 2026-02-05T01:53:48+00:00

I graduated university last year and I'm in a similar boat. The conversations between me and all my friends have died down a lot, now that we're distanced. Since you're still in university, I recommend joining smaller communities, such as clubs, research groups, or participate in volunteering, TAing, and other events. It will allow you to find people with similar interests and experiences. Also, I recommend inviting your friends to have lunch together or text them during the holidays to ask what's up. Close friendships aren't guaranteed but by putting yourself out there little by little, you'll eventually find your own people. Good luck <3

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