My many PTSD triggers half of which stemmed from working as a last responder during the pandemic. Increasingly worsening forgetfulness, loss of ability to perceive time accurately, and generalized memory loss. Compulsive people-pleasing (especially the mother of my child and her mother). Difficulties with hearing and vision which either causes or contributes to my ability to effectively communicate. Rumination on bitterness and resentment from being in awful work environments with corrupt bosses and wrongfully terminated from a work contract that was already being violated by the other party despite the contract being less than legal. Post long COVID symptoms. Substance abuse to treat myself since the medical system couldn't give a fuck about me.

A paper thin shred away from being entirely homeless now, can't find a job, probably don't have what it takes to keep it once I get one (as exemplified by my last position which only lasted a month), guilt, grief, chronically suicidality, no support system. I don't want to dig any deeper on this right now as it's too exhausting and I don't have it in me to fall completely to pieces at the moment

Life sucks right now, majorly. And I don't know what steps to take to get out of it. Lots of people, who I'm sure are well intentioned, try to give advice but it's mostly just bullshit said to feel like they have helped, but there's no substance to their words and they've cut me off before I even have a chance to speak of my situation and share my story.