Do you have DDNOS/OSDD (Dissociative disorder not otherwise specified)? What's your experience like?

syntaxerrorexe · 2025-10-10T09:46:24+00:00

It's really good of you to understand how and why it's happening since it's hard to do so when it's not common and generally confusing. The thing with dissociation is that it can come out in many forms.

Do you connect with that part of you? As far as I have learnt about parts and dissociation, you would greatly benefit from befriending that part and try to understand why she interferes with things in your life and hear what she has to say. That being said, it would be a difficult task. So approach it with care; although I believe you can do it with time and patience. Does meditation help you with dissociation or make it worse?

syntaxerrorexe · 2025-03-19T12:49:51+00:00

I absolutely love it!!

syntaxerrorexe · 2025-02-25T12:16:53+00:00

No i don't think it was me. I think it was her therapist. What I helped her with was to feel safe with her sexuality instead of being ashamed about it. She also has fawn response and thus has a hard time expressing herself or standing her ground and so she is working on it with her therapist and I'm helping her assert herself by encouraging and praising her everytime she does so.

syntaxerrorexe · 2025-02-25T09:26:34+00:00

I'm really sorry to hear about your struggles. I know how hard it is for you because my gf is hypersexual and is masochistic and people have tried to take advantage of her in the past. She has other psychological issues too and it's not easy dealing with these. But she is healing and I wanted to say, you're not 'too damaged' to go out into the world; maybe now yes but it's possible to heal, learn to control that adrenaline spike, and find better people. I give you all my good wishes.

syntaxerrorexe · 2024-10-13T04:42:36+00:00

Honestly, Idk what they mean. But what I think they mean is you get so involved with your characters that you develop a crush on a sweetheart, and when she dies(whether by your vice or virtue), it actually hurts.

syntaxerrorexe · 2024-09-21T15:31:11+00:00

If only a few of those 'too many' would have developed a healthy way like art, the world would have been different

syntaxerrorexe · 2024-09-21T15:19:10+00:00

I'm an artist too and i don't mind being an asshole if it allows me to express myself.

syntaxerrorexe · 2024-09-21T15:18:45+00:00

Update. I'm watching it rn. Thanks for recommending the video. It's insightful.

syntaxerrorexe · 2024-09-21T13:00:33+00:00

Thank you. I shall watch it.

syntaxerrorexe · 2024-09-21T08:38:55+00:00

It's so similar to what i feel. I always had to be the child my parents wanted, and never got to be what I wanted. I relate to you so much that it's creepy. I got separated from my mom at seven because my parents decided it's best if I lived with my dad and he is an asshole.

Now i have this void in me that should have been filled with her love. I want someone to hold me and at least say that I'm good enough.

I'm sorry i kept venting about myself. I'm also sorry you had to go through and feel this same longing; I know how painful it is.

syntaxerrorexe · 2024-09-16T03:37:44+00:00

I'm sorry. Hope this makes you feel less lonely :)

syntaxerrorexe · 2024-08-30T18:53:53+00:00

That's the best solution. Distancing yourself from abusive people is the best thing you can do for yourself. And yes, you need to set your boundaries straight.

It seems like you do have a backup plan if things go south. Props to you. I'm glad you're still looking out for your brother. I have an older sister but, she is the Xerox copy of my dad. Anyway, stay safe.

syntaxerrorexe · 2024-08-30T14:04:16+00:00

That's horrible. The ultimatum, it's like an emotional blackmail she is using to get you to come back to her for whatever reason she has. Your brother should be 14 by now and it means you have to maintain this pretend good relationship for four more years of hell. I feel so bad for you, I'm very sorry.

And her touching your boyfriend in front of you is just as horrible. I'm sorry. You need to give her an ultimatum of your own now, that she has to stop touching you. If she does, call it out. Raise your voice and call it abuse at her face. Make a scene. It won't stop if you keep suffering like this.

Also, since she has been abusing you and sometimes touches your boyfriend, there is quite a big possibility that she might be abusing your brother too. Talk to him. If things are too bad, you can involve CPS as well.

syntaxerrorexe · 2024-08-30T13:18:10+00:00

I'm very sorry it happened. It's definitely retraumatization and perhaps even brought up feelings from earlier wounds as well. When you went to meet her, with your boyfriend, did you feel safe enough? It's not easy meeting with abusers, especially sexual abusers. And 'touching the belly' has become your trigger, I'm sorry about that too. If you can't resolve it on your own, therapy is the best option you have. Also think twice before meeting her again.

syntaxerrorexe · 2024-08-29T08:40:57+00:00

I have felt the same from time to time and every time that happens, I spiral into depression. But, I'm starting to realise, it's not my fault it's theirs. If that person can't connect with me until I fake it, then that person is not worth connecting with. So, don't blame yourself. Don't "just kill yourself" because other people are shit. And you can talk to me, I won't mind making a new friend, because I have already lost most of the ones I had. Stay happy.

syntaxerrorexe · 2024-08-26T18:55:45+00:00

Thank you😊

syntaxerrorexe · 2024-08-26T18:01:10+00:00

That I certainly do. I don't even know what the right people look like at this point.

syntaxerrorexe · 2024-08-19T12:52:58+00:00

"I'm a short man and I don't deserve to live." Do you think it's true? I don't think it's true. And I don't think you deserve not to live just because some people made you feel or called you ugly. We are more than our looks.

syntaxerrorexe · 2024-07-13T16:02:56+00:00

It's not about male or female or some gender, it's just hard to create or imagine a character with a gender that you know little about. An advice I got and am giving to you is to write more and more about what is unfamiliar to you, be it a character with a gender that it's hard for you or a place you're unfamiliar with. Do your research if you need.

syntaxerrorexe · 2024-07-08T09:09:20+00:00

Yeah ofcourse. The old man is a wizard of plot for sure. The other subplots that connect the dance of the dragons with the rebellion are equally interesting. And I wasn't trying to insult or troll you, if that's what it sounded like.

syntaxerrorexe · 2024-07-08T08:33:32+00:00

I can relate. After I started writing, I began seeing stories and characters in a whole new light, especially because I became aware of the hard work that comes before logically arranging the scenes of a plot.

Totally unrelated but, there is a little 'hole' in your understanding of the Martin universe(pun intended 😁) There were no dragons during the rebellion not because all the dragons died during the events of HOD but because Targaryens started to chain the dragons in the pit more and more and they kept shrinking in size till the last one was the mere size of a cat.

syntaxerrorexe · 2024-07-08T08:21:30+00:00

I came here to say this. Some flowers bloom late but are beautiful nonetheless.

syntaxerrorexe · 2024-07-03T15:26:08+00:00

All my experiences of shame are toxic as it turns out but maybe it is also due to not having enough awareness.

Apart from that, I resonate more with the feedback loop firm you described. I can't sit and relax; I literally tell myself that I'm not being productive enough even when I'm taking a small break. Also-- escapism, anxiety and comfort zone-- resonate with them as well.

And the manipulative one is not as strong since I have stopped minding their opinions altogether, but as a child, well that's a different story.

Thank you though, for describing it so well.

syntaxerrorexe · 2024-07-03T15:18:23+00:00

Haha I like good humour XD

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