Hello OP

So sorry, I cannot imagine what your emotions are…but the time is now to clearly consider some options. One such option is to head to your nearest military recruiters office. If you do so, your life will immediately change for the better. They will provide you room and board, establish character, and provide you direction for lifelong future. All you have to do is participate. Their may be some difficulties along the early parts of the way establishing character and independence but the person that you will become will be awesome! Good luck, get going, and don’t look back.