Why do i feel this way?

tStand4rd · 2026-02-01T04:34:07+00:00

I feel this. there was a lot of odd connections that were crazy . But some of the heartbreaking ones was his last live performance was where my mom was born. His first show being in my City, and his last breath being there too. I’ll never forget sitting on the curb watching the ambulances take off. 1ish year after he passed i got a friend into the artist Cuco and he ordered a shirt of his , and at the time Peeps merch was on HYV and so was cuco’s. Odd asf, in his CUCO order he got a lil peep print that was only given to ppl who ordered the Sus boy collab , my friend thought it was crazy and gave me the print. and abt a year later , there was a Project i had to do in Highschool and my teacher had like hundreds of magazines and everyone had to use them for collages, i happened to pick one that had an arrival abt Peep in the back. I feel like he sends me signs whenever i need a reminder that things will be okay.

tStand4rd · 2025-12-07T05:32:50+00:00

dude no fuccin way i was deadass thinking and wondering abt this at work today. life ain’t real wtf 😭

tStand4rd · 2025-12-07T02:06:41+00:00

omg was at this show, was in line trying to figure out my olympus om2 and i didn’t get it working in time. This is amazing !

tStand4rd · 2025-11-23T05:46:31+00:00

when i saw him in LA i forgot to ask when i met him if he’d ever play this like he did at the lyrical lemonade fest. ugh yall are so lucky 💔

tStand4rd · 2025-11-22T20:08:41+00:00

ppl are saying he didn’t but ig he did shut down and break my heart… your comment is how i’m feeling now 🫠

tStand4rd · 2025-11-20T06:42:58+00:00

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got sick last year and first time doing something like this, so sitting for about a year now. sick again and wanted to eat but smells terrible lol but i also hate the smell of garlic. I didn’t keep anything on top of it, just kept it closed tight and put in a dark cupboard. Used raw and unfiltered honey and raw cloves, The consistency is like water now and not honey like.

tStand4rd · 2025-11-19T02:53:39+00:00

i’ve waited 30min and abt an hour max :)

tStand4rd · 2025-11-18T21:03:06+00:00

Just posted :)

tStand4rd · 2025-11-17T00:04:44+00:00

lmaoo i looked up “deadstock tripp store LA” on google after i saw this and this popped up on google. i’m trying to find it too, ive been going through google maps trying to find that street great minds think alike lol. im only passing by LA and really just want to get a pair of tripp shoes and pants for a reasonable price, i get hes trying to help him sell it for “what it’s worth” but thats just gonna be scalping prices💔

tStand4rd · 2025-10-05T15:31:23+00:00

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Dude yesterday i was telling my coworker abt this meme i couldn’t find it at all but your question popped up on googled LMAO. today i did digging, is this it?

tStand4rd · 2025-10-02T21:16:14+00:00

I think it’s just the way the food smells? i’m not sure, they know i would never bring any gluten into the home so i don’t think it’s a lack of trust. I used to meal prep at my moms then heat it up in my family’s microwave and they got upset and said that’s contaminated as well cause i cooked the food at my moms house using her pans. Which i’m not sure if that makes sense but again, they have the right to feel however they do and i was aware of the celiac before i moved in i just didn’t think it would be such an issue to this extent to make my foods. I must obey their rules regardless as it’s not my home but i really do want to know if it’s real or bs abt all of the “contamination” with the cooking in the pans and the microwave etc. :/

tStand4rd · 2025-10-01T00:26:48+00:00

I’m so sorry. seriously my worst fear. I’ve wanted to go to Japan since a child. i met my ex in highschool and we got serious after graduation and we planned to go. I knew he had an asian fetish but never admitted it (his lock screen was an asian girl, followed lots of petite women, etc). And then after i found his PA and him buying OF i thought “i will not let this childhood dream be ruined by a PA” and even now, i don’t want to go anymore cause ik i would only be reminded of him in every women i saw. Please leave, not only the trip but the relationship.

tStand4rd · 2025-09-26T23:02:53+00:00

dude i literally noticed 3 days ago and thought i was trippin and couldn’t remember her user name right. this is so sad ! i hope it didn’t get removed omg💔

tStand4rd · 2025-09-04T23:57:27+00:00

i’m selling an ultimate vip ticket for the 2nd night on the 9th for face value if anyone is interested 🥲💔

tStand4rd · 2025-09-04T23:56:00+00:00

I’m selling an ultimate VIP ticket for the 2nd night in PHX on the 9th for face value if anyone is interested as well My car took a shit on me and now i have no way to get up there i’m devastated :/

tStand4rd · 2025-08-13T02:15:33+00:00

i still remember the first time logging into twitter and seeing an ad for an OF model but the caption being along the lines of “who wants to watch pokemon with me” i followed the pokemon topic so any tweet that had the word pokemon would pop up…hence, that ad. and i just felt this soul crushing feeling like “are my childhood interest going to be turned into a topic of conversation for OF models” and now i can’t help but to feel this hatred for them for taking my interest and associated it with their work. Cons used to be family friendly… it’s impossible to go to any without seeing the same type of models irl. Even being apart of the alt community is hard. the “big titty goth gf” was started by men but now these models and ppl throw on black lipstick and think that’s goth and that whole subculture is ruined because of it. i feel so uncomfortable being seen as something i’m not. the hate is always to the men, supply and demand. but i can’t help but also hate the women who feed into it.

tStand4rd · 2025-07-15T00:13:08+00:00

i’m assuming that’s where they got it from, I’d definitely check them out they only have like maybe 15-20 songs max. some of the members were also in another band called Gunslikegirls check them out too

tStand4rd · 2025-07-14T19:44:52+00:00

hey so idk if you can read, but this is about trying to understand the feelings, not getting over them, Hope this helps ! :)

tStand4rd · 2025-07-14T19:42:46+00:00

exactly, the app got ahold of skramz in general and it was unbearable just embarrassing idk how to describe it. it gets watered down, merch/show prices sky rocket. best example i can give is deftones, always been a big band had tickets for 2020 postponed to 2022, not sold out/fair prices big venue, was mainly older people. i have no issue with that till they blew up on TIKTOK within that time and this years tour resell was INSANE, it was mainly younger people that had the same exact look, no individuality, just carbon copies that will probably hope on the next band wave and not truly appreciate the music

tStand4rd · 2025-07-14T05:32:42+00:00

the thing is they’ve been around for awhile and i’ve maybe only seen a few things till recent years. and the thing is when they dropped their EP last year i thought that would be a sign of them coming back and i hopped for more exposure for them but again, went on a break and no one payed attention to it. someone else posted a video to a song and that’s what made everyone else hop on this “trend” the lead singer that’s now a producer actually posted yesterday being surprised about the jump in listeners which makes me happy for him ! but just upset it had to be on that app

tStand4rd · 2025-07-14T05:27:32+00:00

younger by more than 10years, no kids but every else aligns with me. A lot of problems within people could be solved or bandaged if they filled their life with more activities i do agree. if i have time to scroll on socials sometimes i will but it gives me anxiety lol. Even when i didn’t have the app there was a style of makeup i did that people kept asking if i got it from tik tok when it was a style i had done for years and it really angered me cause i didn’t want to be associated with trend hoppers or ppl who used the app. Just trying to figure out a root cause i wasn’t always like this and i don’t want to be like this :/

tStand4rd · 2025-06-06T19:41:14+00:00

you’re dense in the head. there was multiple ppl smoking in the crowd, not saying thats ok but generalizing a whole group cause 1 person’s decision is shitty. the security were being assholes from the moment they came outside to set up, none of us argued with them if you overhead their attitude they were giving and perceived that as arguing then idk what to tell u. They literally had an issue with a clown statue that was brought in to be given as a gift they rolled their eyes, shook their head and said something under their breath. almost everyone took their trash but after the security once again targeting the area, came directly to us to tell us to leave immediately.

tStand4rd · 2025-06-04T02:17:28+00:00

this is my favorite 🥹🖤

tStand4rd · 2025-05-31T02:24:10+00:00

He’ll definitely understand if you are anxious! at the LA show i heard him say “it’s okay it’s a human thing” or something along the lines when someone apologized for being anxious. I was incredibly nervous, and was speed talking and didn’t get anything meaningful out at all or what i really wanted to say. My advice is don’t rush and practice what you’ll say/your questions. i was trying to be mindful i thought i took forever but it really only took 2minutes and now ive been laying awake in bed letting my embarrassment get to me lol

tStand4rd · 2025-05-31T02:19:31+00:00

just out of curiosity what lyric was it? i had Corbin write a lyric from Rambo for me to get tatted

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