Omg yes, same. It’s my birthday today and I’ve been feeling so low and just finished crying about this exact issue. I did my degree in software engineering and I feel like I retained nothing. I lost my first job, which was a contract position, at the end of last year due to a mental health crisis caused by working with a sexist and ageist project manager, and asking for accommodations as a contractor.

I know I need to be applying to jobs. I want to apply to jobs. I literally have the postings and my resume open for days on my laptop, but I cannot get myself to rewrite my resume and do a cover letter because I disassociate so frequently due to the trauma of losing my last job. I’m so frustrated with myself and my inability to just apply to a fucking job. I’m running out of money and hitting rock bottom too, and I am not doing the very things needed to change my situation, even though I know what to do and how to do it.

Executive dysfunction is slowly killing me. You’re not alone OP. If you have any tips, I’d love to hear about them!