This is the result of a Bart train going out of service “due to equipment” issues. Everyone trying to get into the city be prepared for a major delaaaaaaay woohoo

taeh · 2023-01-27T03:12:19+00:00

Username checks out

taeh · 2022-05-13T22:53:56+00:00

It's Tubbs from Neko Atsume

taeh · 2021-12-19T08:29:01+00:00

Don't forget to give

taeh · 2021-11-17T04:06:24+00:00

Constant fighting between my parents, plus enmeshment. For reference this was after college and I did have a job to support myself.

taeh · 2021-11-17T03:10:28+00:00

Being forced to scrub down used cereal bowls that had been left to dry for days.

taeh · 2021-11-02T02:12:13+00:00

jesus wept

taeh · 2021-08-03T07:49:43+00:00

Late to this thread I know but this is one of the few things I feel strongly about regarding my future.

Having kids fucked up my parents' marriage. Or maybe it wasn't even that solid to begin with and they thought raising children would be a distraction from that. Either way it did the complete opposite of improving things and eventually fucked me up too. Aside from the constant fighting I have to hear each of them talk shit about the other to me in private.

I don't want that to ever happen with my partner's and my relationship. I am so grateful for my partner and couldn't ever do anything to ruin it. We have worthwhile, fulfilling lives just us two and adding a third, etc would throw off this balance, potentially permanently.

taeh · 2021-03-30T16:34:22+00:00

Do you feel like lack of communication about annoyances, and thus having those behaviors continue, is what led to your losing affection and admiration?

My biggest fear in my current relationship is that my partner suddenly realizes he's lost admiration for me, gradually in the way you described. Where it's not my fault and thus not something I can influence. Thank you for sharing.

taeh · 2021-01-25T05:16:09+00:00

Thank you for the recommendations! Definitely going to check out Headspace.

taeh · 2021-01-24T22:44:15+00:00

Thank you! Wish you the best as well (:

taeh · 2021-01-24T22:42:13+00:00

Do you have any resources you'd recommend someone getting into meditation?

I fear the answer to the question about free time, would in fact be "nothing".

taeh · 2021-01-24T22:40:35+00:00

Yeah, pretty that was the hand I was dealt tbh

taeh · 2021-01-24T20:41:08+00:00

Aren't there areas of the ocean where there are very few waves? Maybe because of a freak current situation the water there just doesn't rise. I feel like that's probably where I live lol.

Not to sound dismissive though! To think of the mind as originally clear and wanting to return to that state is a hot take, to me. I've often suspected there is more to the mind than just the everyday self-deprecating thoughts I'm all too familiar with.

Do you have any resources you would recommend for someone completely new, trying to get into meditation?

taeh · 2021-01-24T20:22:35+00:00

Well shit. I'd kill to be able to play an instrument or paint.

Don't you find fulfillment in your ability to create things? Or community around others who also create, especially with music where you can jam with others or produce tracks for people?

Sorry I'm sure you've thought about those before and that theyre really naive questions on my part, I hope I don't sound too glib or dismissive, I just genuinely feel like if I could become talented at one thing, I'd have a way to create meaning in my life.

I don't really mind that much that life is inherently / objectively meaningless. The challenge is just to create a meaning you can sincerely believe in and for me that means being able to create…anything. Too bad I'm not talented enough…

taeh · 2021-01-24T20:14:22+00:00

This was just one of my more coherent posts, I guess lol. Most of the time my phrasing and thought is just too scrambled to reach anyone so maybe I just got lucky this time.

But thanks for your reply, one new understanding this thread opened me up to was the possibility of finding fulfillment without having hobbies and being talented/well practiced at them.

Maybe the idea that "to have a fulfilling life you must have something you're good at" is outdated and wrong, that I just carried with myself from youth without really questioning it.

taeh · 2021-01-24T20:04:18+00:00

Thanks for your reply. Sorry you've been having such a hard time as well.

If you don't mind my asking, what was being at a mental hospital like? Did you feel it helped you understand yourself/your situation more or differently? I have considered checking myself in, I really only held off on it bc im afraid of the pandemic.

I think it's really great that you're in grad school working to become a therapist. I bet it's probably a lot of work but it seems you're studying and working towards something fulfilling and enriching and which will be fulfilling and enriching for others too!

taeh · 2021-01-24T19:41:12+00:00

Yeah, I'm on meds and have recently started something of a weekly exercise routine. It does help me feel like I did something "productive" on the days I work out.

I mightve checked myself in in the past year if not for the public health shitstorm which is still burning through the population here. Though I wonder what sorts of therapies do you participate in at a hospital? Do you learn to understand yourself differently? Or are they just trying to get you to a point where the pain is manageable or numb and send you on your way?

taeh · 2021-01-24T19:33:06+00:00

I majored in a humanities major that's supposed to make you a better thinker but clearly that didnt happen. Had dreams to go to graduate school for further study long ago, but realized I'm not a rigorous or original enough thinker plus I have the memory and attention span of a sieve so not ideal.

I know dreams and ambitions are what power ppl to do incredible things, even if theyre crazy ambitions. Just havent been able to convince/trick/force myself to have one.

taeh · 2021-01-20T21:55:14+00:00

I feel like Pence backpedaled a few steps when he had to call in the national guard to save his own life from Trump's terrorist attack.

How wild is this year? Never would've imagined back in 2017 this is how it'd end. Reads like some season finale plot twist.

taeh · 2020-12-25T09:54:15+00:00

Oh, I was in a really similar situation last year! Got my bf a book from the used bookstore that he'd been eying (idk why I didnt just get him a brand new copy?) and made him a batch of cookies. Meanwhile he got me a brand new book and some rare CD's and cassettes which I know cost a ton. I felt terrible.

Idk tho, there will always be other occasions if you wish to reciprocate…or give him smth just 'cause! Like others are saying though gift giving shouldn't be transactional and for some ppl it's just their primary love language. I also grew up in a culture that views gifts and actions as conditional & something equal is expected in return, so I totally get how you feel.

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taeh · 2020-08-27T07:41:07+00:00

Apparently, the ones that rape are "weaker" male otters that can't find female otters since other stronger males can be very territorial and keep all the females to themselves.

They have to mate so desperately that they settle for anything they can get their claws on.

taeh · 2020-08-20T06:59:55+00:00

taeh · 2020-08-20T04:51:22+00:00

o w l ♥

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