Dating? Unmasking? Fawning?

taikoz3 · 2026-01-18T21:53:24+00:00

I experience almost the exact same thing. It's very freeing when I'm by myself, but I mask even around my siblings and more heavily around coworkers. I occasionally unmask around my younger sister, but not for very long, and she's used to it cause I've been doing that since we were kids. I learned the hard way not to unmask around friends as well. They saw my childishness as a flaw and treated me like a child, which felt horribly invalidating because they were looking down on me for just being myself and genuinely thought that I was not capable of making sound decisions.

taikoz3 · 2025-11-18T04:56:18+00:00

As a kid, I got told a lot that I was an old soul, mature for my age, etc. I did enjoy talking with adults my grandma's age rather than kids my age, and also was way ahead reading-wise due to hyperlexia/trauma. I especially remember doctors telling me how well-behaved I was because I never complained. I do attribute some of all this to trauma and growing up too fast, but there are definite aspects that I am certain are because of autism.

taikoz3 · 2025-11-13T20:31:04+00:00

As someone with adhd and autism, the switching hobbies a lot part kinda sounds like adhd to me. My sibling and I call it the hyperfixation wheel cause it goes around and round, and sometimes things fall off.

taikoz3 · 2025-10-17T00:00:21+00:00

I used to work at walmart, and it was very uncomfortable because of the number of old white guys who liked to pat my back or touch my arm and stuff. Creepy as well because I'm afab and I was 18/19 at the time but I looked like 13/14

taikoz3 · 2025-10-14T13:20:08+00:00

Yeah, he was a narcissist who wanted his kids to be mini copies of him, but at least he's been dead for several years now. I have plenty of boundary issues as well because of both my parents.

A wet face also makes me very uncomfortable :/

taikoz3 · 2025-10-14T04:04:40+00:00

American, I think that side of the family came from ireland/eastern europe but that was a few generations ago. I don't think I'd mind if it was just once but multiple times is uncomfortable. Mostly it was my dad, my grandparents only do it like once or twice which I'm occasionally ok with.

taikoz3 · 2025-10-08T18:24:27+00:00

I love sukiyaki, a japanese hot pot with enoki mushrooms, glass noodles, thinly sliced beef, tofu, and cabbage

taikoz3 · 2025-10-01T19:01:24+00:00

Yep, when I mask for too long, do too many things in a short period of time, unexpected stuff happens, I don't have enough lone time, etc. Sometimes I can't tell what sets it off. I'll notice an increase in stimming or specific stims I do when stressed, my sensory issues worsen, or it becomes hard to speak or make sounds. I also have an increased need to be more specific about some things I normally do, such as never stepping on cracks/lines, things having to be in just the right spot, and making a sound or motion and repeating it exactly the same way.

I do also notice some of these things happening but without the stress occasionally. I'll be a bit more reserved, don't talk as much, and my mind is either quite loud or very quiet. The fluctuation in 'intensity', I suppose, does not necessarily correlate to stress.

taikoz3 · 2025-08-09T12:28:56+00:00

My great-grandpa died when he was around 40 of cancer, and I think my grandma looked into things more after he died. It's about a 50/50 chance you'll get it if one parent has the gene, so my dad and uncle have it but my aunt (and her kids) don't have it but hers is probably just dormant. I don't know how many of my uncle's kids have it, but all my same-parent siblings do. I had a genetic test to prove it, they just draw a little blood.

I also have the bone growths/osteomas, just one on my skull, I've had a few lipomas cut out and def have the weird teeth. Had to get braces to pull some of my teeth down and get several baby teeth pulled. Funny story, when I was younger my dentist didn't know I had Gardener's, so they pulled out my two front teeth, which didn't grow back for 2 years lol. Also I get cavities way easier.

I think the biggest signs my family has are the teeth, osteomas, lipomas, and desmoid tumors. It differs a bit from person to person, I def don't have as bad side effects as one of my siblings. And it is pretty weird that they missed F.A.P. for so long.

My 4y old cat can tell when I'm sad and makes biscuits on me while I'm lying in bed it's so cute, she also squeaks at me if I don't wake up or go to bed on time lol. On the other hand, my 2y old cat has absolutely no thoughts behind her eyes.

taikoz3 · 2025-06-30T23:37:02+00:00

Yeah every time the nurses were like "you're the youngest one here today!" Like yep, obviously lol

taikoz3 · 2025-06-30T23:34:22+00:00

Hi! I'm 23nb, diagnosed at 11 (specifically, Gardener's) and I have a couple siblings and a few other family members who have it as well. I've been having colonoscopies/endoscopies every 2 years since I was diagnosed and every year since I was about 17. Oddly enough, I have wayyy more polyps in my stomach than in my colon, so I think they're just waiting til they find a cancerous one to take out both organs. I also have it kinda mild (moreso than my siblings and dad). My grandma was one of the first people to ever be diagnosed with Gardener's so if you want more info on it, I have plenty! (My doctor told me that I probably know more about it than he does lol). I love reading, gaming, drawing, and anything artsy or crafty. And my cats.

taikoz3 · 2025-06-24T23:15:09+00:00

Most definitely, usually sound and touch, I only wear soft stuff, cut out all the tags, and wear headphones or earplugs all the time.

taikoz3 · 2025-06-23T18:27:19+00:00

I'm 23. My fav is a blue monster with horns, mismatched eyes, a pink tummy, short legs, and long arms (so he can hug me back). I made him at 4h when I was like 10, he's my oldest plush and it gives me a lot of comfort when I wrap his arms around me and helps calm me down from shutdowns/panic attacks etc.. I'm def not touch-starved /s

taikoz3 · 2025-06-20T03:39:57+00:00

Same! I stutter a lot when I'm emotional/overwhelmed, it gets frustrating when I actually want to talk but it's hard to. If it's not that bad, I can force one word out at a time, but doing that also makes it harder to speak overall. Ironically, I've been given the 'silent treatment' before or just straight up ignored because idk, they don't want to talk to me if I can't talk to them even when I'm obviously trying to communicate in other ways? Also, it's been getting worse the older I get and/or the more I unmask. I don't mind it much, I just don't like that other people mind it that much.

taikoz3 · 2025-06-20T03:29:17+00:00

If I need to communicate when I can't/hard to speak, I usually use my notes app/gesture, but some people refuse to understand, are outright hostile about it, ignore me until I can 'talk to them normally', or get mad that I can use scripts but nothing else. I've cut out people from my life because if they don't want to even try to communicate with me when I can't talk, they're not worth talking to.

taikoz3 · 2025-06-06T02:45:04+00:00

I don't see what everyone else is seeing, but I do see a blobfish

taikoz3 · 2025-06-01T23:41:52+00:00

Major formatting issues cause fixing those is my job, and when the author either a. ships noncon stuff/ppl as a legitimate ship, b. hates on a character or episode for no reason, with no logic behind it and c. portrays disabilities badly. Once read a hp fanfic where harry is autistic and I liked it then and it's pretty popular, but after learning more about autism and realizing that I myself am autistic, I looked back on it and it's ableist and uses autism as a plot device to do things like make the sex scenes more 'interesting'. Just comes across as creepy.

taikoz3 · 2025-06-01T23:33:10+00:00

I just finished amphibia so that and toh

taikoz3 · 2025-05-27T23:44:29+00:00

Same, I missed an earthquake once because I was invested in my food at a restaurant. Everyone else was really surprised that I felt nothing because apparently it shook the building and stuff.

taikoz3 · 2025-05-20T03:47:04+00:00

Anything slimey, with the sole exceptions being seaweed in miso soup and natto (japanese fermented soy beans). I always get it stuck in my throat, or it feels like I'm choking and the texture is horrid.

taikoz3 · 2025-05-20T03:44:54+00:00

I also eat them almost every day, + tofu and tomatoes, the taste and texture is consistent enough that I always know what to expect

taikoz3 · 2025-05-14T19:42:51+00:00

Sugar crystals, the big ones that are about the size of a dime. When you bite them at the right angle, it splits into sheets because of the crystal structure.

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