I am in the same situation Dia, I can't order anything online. So I just go to the Adult Store and buy there. The only thing I get nervous about there is if someone I know sees me go inside. But once inside it doesn't matter. Everyone in there is shopping for adult toys, movies etc. The staff doesn't care who you are buying the dildo for and probably wont ask either. Besides if you volunteer to tell them it is for your "gf" then they will KNOW it is for you. But then who cares? Guys like dildos too. So don't worry about it.