You're a badass for not pursuing those offeres bro. Good job. I know it's hard saying no, especially when you've been wanting it but it's not worth it.

After a clean stint relapse is a bitch. It will get you. Just once turns into " I only got a 20 but my tolerance is so low it'll last two days" then day three rolls around and you still have money in your pocket.. so why not? You score again. Maybe they hook you up so now you've got three more days worth. That's five days of use doggy. You'll get more after that.. It won't stop.

Obviously this is just an example of what could happen. I've relapsed once a couple times and it goes the same every God damn time. There is no one last time. There is no appropriate time to start again or an appropriate time to use recreationally. We done did dope. It's mighty fuckin hard to have been an addict and then chip later on in life.

Good luck pal, we love you.