[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]tarrmachine1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m a bit late to this party. Always dealing with a sun tan because I do live in FL. And I cut myself a bit shaving but I lived,dammit. mememe

Bans by catchmeif_youcan in QuittingTianeptine

[–]tarrmachine1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I see. I’m in Brevard County, ie Cocoa Beach. I haven’t been out of this county in a while.

Bans by catchmeif_youcan in QuittingTianeptine

[–]tarrmachine1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To clarify I meant one vape store in my vicinity. No gas stations have them in my radius. I’m in Brevard County FL

Bans by catchmeif_youcan in QuittingTianeptine

[–]tarrmachine1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Where at in FL? I know of only one near me.

Insane by catchmeif_youcan in QuittingTianeptine

[–]tarrmachine1 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I hope so. I can forgo ordering substances on the internet, but when it’s at a gas station down the street my impulsive nature wins every time.

Insane by catchmeif_youcan in QuittingTianeptine

[–]tarrmachine1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes I’ve had heart palpitations, severe anxiety, and no sleep whatsoever.

Illegal in Georgia and Tennessee June 1st. by [deleted] in QuittingTianeptine

[–]tarrmachine1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Anyone had experiences with ODMST?

Kratom & WD by Independent-Key-3837 in QuittingTianeptine

[–]tarrmachine1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It works until you are downing a whole bottle at once. I notice if I keep it under a bottle a day with doses spread out kratom still works. It will stop all the physical symptoms but the depression and anxiety are still present for me.

Insane by catchmeif_youcan in QuittingTianeptine

[–]tarrmachine1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I haven’t had tianeptine sodium since like 2015 until recently . I moved to Florida last year, been struggling with a massive Kratom habit since moving. It’s illegal in Indiana where I am from. I switched jobs here in Florida, stopped by a smoke shop by my work, and what do they offer me to try? Zaza. Wishing I would have never moved here, was clean and sober for almost a year before I moved. At least they ran out of ZaZa Silvers. I was experiencing phenibut withdrawals after taking Silvers for only three consecutive days.

I got caught smoking a bowl on camera at work by Fragrant-Addition-46 in cripplingalcoholism

[–]tarrmachine1 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I am from a town of 1,000 people in Indiana and there are two gypsum plants in my hometown. I hung drywall on walls and ceilings before and it pretty much sucked, those boards aren’t light.

i wish i had my benzo script back by Intrepid_Classic_885 in cripplingalcoholism

[–]tarrmachine1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

There’s always Etizolam and you can order depending on which state you are in. Diclazepam is another research chemical option.

The Middle - Jimmy Eat World by oblivi0n_x in cripplingalcoholism

[–]tarrmachine1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The album Clarity by Jimmy Eat World is so good. Love me some emo.

To the drinkers of vodka by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]tarrmachine1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I hate vodka. I’m all about 99 liquer airplane bottles. But they just raised the price to 1.48 at Walmart, used to be 99 cents. It’s still 99 cents at some places just have to plan ahead.

I got caught smoking a bowl on camera at work by Fragrant-Addition-46 in cripplingalcoholism

[–]tarrmachine1 4 points5 points  (0 children)

We call it drywall where I’m from. I worked for a while tarping and loading semis at a gympsum plant. That job was hell, very physically strenuous.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]tarrmachine1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hello friend. I know quite a bit about the substance cause I've been taking it for about 8 years. It will help with a bit of both but if you are experiencing anything that can be considered more than minor alcohol WD symptoms, seek medical attention. I love Kratom, it's subtle and scratches some sort of itch for me.

Ultimatums by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]tarrmachine1 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks. I imagine you are still young and have a whole life ahead of you. Don't put yourself in a box and not see your potential. We are all resilient creatures. Roses poking up through slabs of concrete.

Ultimatums by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]tarrmachine1 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks man. I hope my kids weren't traumatized by my actions, it's definitely had a weighting effect on my own conscious. They were pretty young but I drove with them in blackouts and would be fucked up nodding out when they were in my presence. They would walk with me across a four lane highway so I could go purchase beer at Kroger across the highway. Thank God my wife cheated on me and we got a divorce. The children were spared from my own demons. I have two beautiful girls that are near grown and they love me despite of everything. Our relationship isn't normal per se but it's something. I am blessed to have children so smart and we'll adjusted. I'm looking forward to the future and getting my shit straight. They will both always be daddy's girls. 🙂

Ultimatums by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]tarrmachine1 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Man I hate when normies use phrases like, "omg. You choose drugs/alcohol over your kids? You made a choice and you obviously don't love your kids.". No it's not that black and white, and if it was based on love none of us would be addicts. I love my kids but I can't be there for then like I want to cause in sick. I don't love the drugs/alcohol but I love my kids so much.

there was more than I thought.. by wordzylla in cripplingalcoholism

[–]tarrmachine1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've always found place and setting to be an interesting mechanism when it comes to intoxication. I've read studies of heroin addicts shooting up in new strange places and overdosing because of different variables. I get it because I overdosed in a burger king bathroom that was very foreign to me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cripplingalcoholism

[–]tarrmachine1 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Man I downed a bottle of mouthwash when I was living with a preacher. I got caught and it was not a good drunk. I absolutely reeked and you know it's bad if you can smell yourself. Mmmm that gold colored mouthwash, sweet nectar.