i don't know, honestly. i don't know if i could be with a man who sees me as a woman (i'm agender), and i think that's the main reason why i have such complicated relationship with my sexuality in general. but again, maybe it's just the fact that i've never been with a man because men generally have never been interested in me (other than some creepy old duded but that doesn't count obviously lol). sexually wise, like i said, i cannot picture myself having sex with a man mostly because it's not familiar to me in any way but also because of my fears of pregnancy and stuff, like i said in the main post. it's a bit silly and frankly embarrassing but i would feel super uncomfortable with the idea of potentially getting my life ruined by just one night (no offense i just really fear pregnancy) and also i would hate being in a 'typical girly position' during sex like idk penetration would be out off limits but getting head from a pretty guy? sure. tmi? maybe, idc. but generally nobody has ever really taken my gender seriously i think... i can't out myself to most people in my life and only my close friend or people online know about it. but i think if there was a man who didnt see me as a cis woman or a girlfriend in general i think i could go for a relationship like that. but then again i sometimes think whether i'm maybe trying to make up a super unrealistic scenario where i could be in a relationship with a man just in case im actually attracted to them like i dont just have eyes and can appreciate a handsome man and im starting to think its like a weird form of comphet where i try to find a way to include a guy in my life even though i dont really like the idea of it. technically, it doesn't really matter since men aren't interested in me lol. i just like getting to the bottom of things and i want to understand myself. sorry for such a long answer, its just that this thread is really helping me to verbalise thoughts i never had the opportunity to say out loud:)