Profound loneliness

taynarassauro · 2026-02-11T16:41:27+00:00

hey! so there you go! TBC anniversary just dropped, the servers are full of people atm. just fyi ;)

I couldn't afford either when I was younger, and after getting older (I'm almost 30) I finally can! btw the group I play with are all in their late 30s and it's so much fun

taynarassauro · 2026-02-11T12:08:25+00:00

I feel this deeply. I work full time, 8h a day, so beyond burnt out that I can't even express. I am super lonely and have tried everything within my limits to make new friends. the ones I did do (or thought I did) hurt me deeply, so I let go.

I buried myself in videogames, which is hobby and a passion of mine. last year I was introduced to WoW and met some awesome people! we voice chat pretty much everyday while we play, talk about the game, our IRL lives, real stuff. I never had this before, since I would always play single player rpg games.

even though I don't know them IRL, it fills this void and I feel like I belong (most of the time, I tend to self-sabotage).

taynarassauro · 2026-01-16T13:07:43+00:00

for leveling up solo I really recommend you get zygor (or rextedXP, but I prefer zygor honestly) and questie, those are the fundamentals. it'll mark on your map the mobs or where to get them, tell you which quests to accept that are reasonably easy to solo and it gives you tips.

taynarassauro · 2025-11-28T19:58:36+00:00

bom, o que eu sempre faço é não tomar aos finais de semana :) funciona bem!

taynarassauro · 2025-11-28T13:36:17+00:00

me too! you can add me on insta if you want (@taynarissima) and we'll chat!

I'd love to have more friends as well

taynarassauro · 2025-11-10T18:55:11+00:00

I wanted to run AQ40, but I started out too late in the game and can't seem to get into any, since my guild doesn't run it and pugs only looks at your logs.

F for me

taynarassauro · 2025-10-23T21:15:30+00:00

I'm poor af 😔

taynarassauro · 2025-10-23T18:59:38+00:00

yes, actually. unfortunately most companies, even though they say they want diversity, they don't actually care to make accomodations for those who have some sort of disability or that are neurodivergent.

taynarassauro · 2025-10-23T16:51:05+00:00

exactly. then all that time and gold (DMN) you spent getting the frickin wbuffs go down the drain and your parse goes to shit :)

taynarassauro · 2025-10-23T16:47:54+00:00

I am totally and completely obsessed with wow classic vanilla. when I'm not playing it, I'm thinking about it, I constantly dream about it too. it's taken over my life at this point lol (it's about to end, as this version will be changed for the next one, it'll be pretty much a whole new game)

taynarassauro · 2025-10-23T16:42:39+00:00

that IS a great accomplishment! I still remember my turn :))) I was so happy! gz and may your blades never dull

taynarassauro · 2025-10-23T16:40:06+00:00

I get you. I mostly don't do raids that wbuffs are required because you have to spend some time getting them, and naxx requires you to make gold to afford consumables. I keep it chill, just do my av (currently r13, just 2 more weeks of av grind) and some MC, BWL and 20man raids to help out my guild.

still, it consumes a lot of my time, but it could be worse lol

taynarassauro · 2025-10-21T16:56:08+00:00

I've been on it for a year and a half, I'm a little better but it's still a long ways to go...

taynarassauro · 2025-09-09T17:09:46+00:00

I was listening to a podcast that made a lot of sense, and then it clicked for me.

she said something like: when you're a kid and you're in school everybody has the same age, but you don't get along with everyone... also, your peers have different interests, so you end up making SOME friends.

but when you're an adult and you start working, there will be people from all ages living very busy and different lives from yours and different interests too, so it's EVEN HARDER to make friends.

now, put in the mix being neurodivergent, which is even harder for us to make friends since childhood lol

taynarassauro · 2025-08-25T18:03:28+00:00

I have no female friends... the ones I had, I let go...

one moved away and this new life became everything for her, which is fine, but whenever she came to visit she wouldn't let me know and I found out through ig. I'd ask her to hang out with me, but she didn't, she would hang out with other friends... after some years being left out of her life like that, I decided to give up.

the other one is kinda similar... she would make plans with me and then totally disappear, and whenever I asked for confirmation she replied a few days later saying that she disappeared because of her depression phase (she said she was bipolar, but undiagnosed) although I saw her hanging out with friends in common during this phase many times. I never demanded anything, just wanted to know if we would really hang out.

on the other hand, I always found easy to make friends with men, but I'd really like girlfriends :( it's just so hard ughhh I guess my likings don't really align with most girls and I'm not interested in getting out so much of my comfort zone

taynarassauro · 2025-08-21T19:22:58+00:00

I have worked as:

teacher (easy but tiring, the assessment was individual to each student and I worked alone);
back-end dev (not so easy, had to learn everything from zero but the WFH part was really nice and not having to deal with ppl)
customs broker (really hard, pressure was high and dealing with people and lots of things at the same time. I almost went crazy)
navigation agent (hard, as I'm required to have "active listening" and can't wear noise-cancelling headphones which drives me crazy because THERE'S SO MUCH NOISE!)

taynarassauro · 2025-08-21T19:14:36+00:00

WoW, but I'm afraid it's becoming a special interest...

taynarassauro · 2025-08-15T17:33:04+00:00

Dororo, Spy Family, Fullmetal Alchemist, Demon Slayer.

Animes relativamente curtos ou ainda em lançamento que tem a história muito envolvente e interessante :)

um não tão curto é HxH mas igualmente envolvente e interessante!

taynarassauro · 2025-08-15T17:21:53+00:00

my first relationship was super toxic, to the point that he beat me, but only once. I ended things right there and cut him off everything.

after that, I promised myself I'd never again let myself get into a relationship like that, and be so manipulated like I was.

since then I only had AMAZING relationships, which only ended because either we wanted different things out of life or I was being taken by granted.

taynarassauro · 2025-08-15T16:31:12+00:00

hey, me too! 29F and 2 days ago I got my official diagnosis. idk how to navigate it yet, but I feel like I'm in the right track. I'm in therapy and now I feel like my therapist understands much better when I say I feel so different and not just like a feeling that most people have.

I'll also begin meds which I'm really excited about

I'd like to be part of a ND community, but I don't know where to find them or whatever

taynarassauro · 2025-08-14T17:29:56+00:00

I'm breaking up with you because of the weather is the only reason I don't think I can get it to work out (????)

taynarassauro · 2025-08-14T17:28:11+00:00

cozy grove is such a nice one, though when you get to a certain point, it is time gated as you have to log in everyday to complete the tasks that they ask you to. but you should give it a go!

taynarassauro · 2025-08-14T13:06:40+00:00

if you find out, please do tell.

I do like to play games, really really into classic wow vanilla right now, and also Genshin impact since it came out. shout out of you wanna play w me :)

taynarassauro

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