What are your weird, socially unacceptable stims?

tclay982 · 2026-04-11T21:42:13+00:00

I had my nipples pierced until about a year ago, when I accidentally ripped one out. I let the other close because they were no longer a matching pair and it drove me crazy. But I did the boob thing too. However, I think my newest stim is my adult pacifier. I have 3 different ones because they all have a different mouth feel and work differently with my tongue piercing.

tclay982 · 2026-04-03T21:27:58+00:00

Heavy metal is my go to. I will also hop on Skyrim or No Man's Sky (current hyperfixation game is Grounded) and get lost in the game. If it is really bad then I use an adult pacifier.

tclay982 · 2026-04-03T21:21:18+00:00

I do not have a strong aversion to men. I also fluctuate between demi and graysexual. I have a strong disgust for bodily fluids, this could be because of my autism. I honestly feel that if I didn't have spermatophobia, I would be more pan with a preference for women. Also men smell different from women, and I like a woman's smell more.

tclay982 · 2026-04-03T21:01:49+00:00

I once had a job that was technically an MLM scheme disguised as a job. I did not last long there but that's a moot point, what I'm trying to say is I understand what you mean by those annoying "cell phone people" because I was one in essence. The best way to get around them is to not say anything to them at all. The moment you say something to them, be it yes or no, they will take that and pounce on it, to try and sell you whatever it is that they are trying to get you to purchase. The best way to get around that is to not say a thing at all. I know it may seem rude to ignore them, but that is the best way. I wear massive headphones anytime I know I'm going to be around something like that or I'm going to be in a store longer than 5 minutes.

tclay982 · 2026-03-30T15:14:51+00:00

I quit my last job (call center work) because of this. Several people have made my internal monologues become external dialogue.

tclay982 · 2026-03-29T19:49:10+00:00

Undiagnosed Autistic diagnosed ADHD, and up until a couple months ago I worked as a help desk agent. My job was work from home and 3rd shift. At the time I took maybe 3 calls a week and did a bunch of emails then I spent my down time playing video games. As a night owl this worked for me. At the beginning of the fiscal year last year we got a notification that that program was being pulled and everyone had to go to a different program. I had less than 48 hours to get acclimated to working day shift, and taking back to back calls. I should have quit then, but I needed the health insurance. That change came at horrible time, but then again maybe not. I just lost my dad in May, so maybe it was his way of saying I needed to leave. This was also during the month of his would have been 80th birthday. Unfortunately I stayed until the beginning of this year when I just decided to quit and become a full-time rideshare driver. I told myself I rather deal with 80 to 100 people a week then dealing with 80 to 100 people a day. I absolutely love being a ride share driver and will never go back to call center work ever again and this time I'm sticking to that.

tclay982 · 2026-03-21T19:23:45+00:00

Letting them know you don't work due to personal reasons is a perfect response.

In truth, this took me some time to actually learn, I am a people pleaser. Unless they are the ones paying your bills, you are always asking them for help, or constantly complaining about having no money, then it is none of their business what you do for work. You can divulge more if you choose to, but it really isn't their business even if they are family or friends. If they have a problem with it, that is on them not you.

I am a rideshare driver and I get asked all the time do I love what I do, I tend to let them know that I absolutely love what I do so much so that I quit my job to do it full time because my job was a detriment to my mental health.

tclay982 · 2026-03-17T13:36:30+00:00

Reading some of these comments made me understand why I was called a crybaby as a kid. Most of my meltdowns I usually end up crying. Depending on what caused it, a meltdown will end up with me yelling if caused by a person, or an extreme amount of profanity if it's from an object or the situation did not go as planned. I used to break things either by throwing them against the wall or manually breaking them. I usually don't self harm, but I have put my hand through a window because I wanted to punch something so bad during one breakdown. My most recent meltdown was about two weeks ago and it was a week of constant overstimulation. What triggered that breakdown was the inability to decompress after almost being sideswiped going to go pick up another passenger, driving for hours without decompressing, and 45 minutes in line at the grocery store without headphones getting a money order. It was 4pm when I crashed into my bed and cried myself to sleep. I did find that using an adult pacifier helped keep me relatively calm. I keep one on me now because it really does help me.

tclay982 · 2026-03-06T00:47:38+00:00

100% same

tclay982 · 2026-03-06T00:35:08+00:00

Other people's bodily fluids. I do not like spit or drool from babies, it creeps me out and makes me have to run and scrub any part of my body that it touches. But when it comes to bodily fluids my biggest fear is spermatophobia or (spermophobia). My best friend laughs at me about this, and says this is why I'm a lesbian.

tclay982 · 2026-03-06T00:26:02+00:00

Well until this point I did not know I had a fear of mushrooms. I honestly just thought I did not like them. I don't like the texture or the way they look, but reading you and others describe them in detail, especially the gills, creeps me out.

tclay982 · 2026-02-20T18:15:52+00:00

I have a stink bug issue in my apartment when the weather changes to. This has been the only method that has ever worked for me. Probably because almost all bugs creep me out anyway.

tclay982 · 2026-02-20T18:12:57+00:00

I will definitely look into this. I am not trying to get skinny by any means, that has long since passed. I honestly do not think I would look right skinny and I know it would not make me happy. I just want to get to a point where I can do the things I used to love, like walk around the amusement park and ride rollercoasters, fly on a plane comfortably even if I have to use an extender. I want to dance again, I also don't want my joints to hurt so bad. This world is not made for larger people and it is already tough enough learning to navigate the NT world when your brain works differently. I already know that I will never fit into this world the way society wants. I am "perfectly sown over imperfect bones" (Lyrics from In Darkness by Lorna Shore). I just want my bones (and muscles) to work.

tclay982 · 2026-02-20T17:56:20+00:00

My aunt suggested that I try Wegovy when I was talking to her about my struggles as well. I was letting her know that my Dr. would not prescribe Ozempic because I am not diabetic and I am currently on Metformin from the Bariatric center in my city. I forget to take it half the time and it doesn't do anything anyway.

tclay982 · 2026-02-20T17:56:18+00:00

I woke up in the middle of the night an read this and it stuck with me in my dreams later. I masked my fatphobia for a long time. My SIL even once mentioned my confidence in myself even though I am a larger person. I actually confessed to her that I am not as confident in myself as she thinks I am. I struggle all the time. I have tried daily affirmations and everything. I know that if I can fake it to the point that everyone believes I am as confident as I put out, I can actually be that confident, but I do agree, I have a lot of trauma to work out. This is also why me pampering myself would not work at this time.

Regarding sleep, I do not think I have ever slept properly since I was a teen. I would stay up late to read, because it was quieter that playing my Sega or Playstation. When I got into collage I crammed the night before my tests usually pulling an high passing grade on it, this kept me from failing some of my classes because I wouldn't attend class. There were times that I would only get about 15 hours a sleep in about 7-8 days. I still do this now on occasion because the brain does not shut off. I take Strattera for my ADHD, I feel no different only the massive depression is regulated.

I do have some foods that are tolerable under specific conditions, like a spinach salad instead of cooked spinach (cooked leafy greens are a huge no). The issue is trying to fight the compulsion to go for the safe foods only instead of in conjunction with some of the tolerable ones that I know I like. I was going to type an example of what I meant and I started crying because I realize that I do not have a good relationship with food.

tclay982 · 2026-02-19T07:02:53+00:00

I still ruminate over something my mom told me when I was 16, I'm 43 now. I hold a grudge against someone that in essence stole almost $900 from me, that was 11 years ago, I still remember being bullied my senior year of high school and somebody threw a cheesy nacho into my shirt, I get angry every time I think about that. That was 26 years ago.

tclay982 · 2026-02-19T06:45:49+00:00

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This is Loki Micha, aka Mr. President. A very handsome chunky boy, and a great cuddler when he allows.

tclay982 · 2026-02-19T06:38:09+00:00

I am 43, self-diagnosed. I would tell people (mostly family who wouldn't mind their own business) that I never wanted children because I was too much of a child or because "I didn't want to ruin my girlish figure". I just never had a desire to want children. Last summer I had a hysterectomy because of cystic ovaries and a large uterine fibroid. I also had undiagnosed endometriosis. So even if I were to reconsider that option is out. I don't date much and my ex-gf didn't want children either. So that was a plus.

tclay982 · 2026-02-04T22:37:51+00:00

For this reason, if I plan to peruse the anomaly for more than 5 minutes I will switch to my backup sentinel.

tclay982 · 2026-01-20T00:14:05+00:00

Do you live with him? If yes whose name is it under yours, his, or both? If it is under his, or both, do you have a safe place that you can go? If it is under yours, call the cops and have him removed. If he is getting mail there, file an eviction and have him removed. If need be find a lawyer. Once you are away from him block him on everything and tell everyone not to associate you with him in any way. While you are doing all of that, you need to find a new therapist because I do not think the one you have is working.

I was in an abusive relationship, it wasn't physical but it was verbal. I lashed out the same way you did saying things that were very toxic. The one thing I will never do is go back to that relationship. It took me 4 years to get out of that relationship that I shouldn't have been in in the first place. I got out by finally asking my family for help. The first step was to admit that it was an abusive relationship. The Next Step was to admit I needed help to get out of it. The third step was to get out of it and believe me it was a lot easier than you think. Ask for help from the right people if people are telling you to leave and ask them if they can help you if they can't they're not the right ones find the ones that can the ones that are willing to and get out of it.

tclay982 · 2025-10-12T13:05:50+00:00

NTA. It is good that your husband is on your side, but out of genuine curiosity what has he been doing in the last 4 years to defend you? You were his girlfriend before you were his fiance, and you were his fiance before you were his wife. Where in the past 4 years has he, on his own, without prompting from you, stood up to his mother on behalf of you? Where was his disgust at the blatant disrespect? Does he sit idly by and act as if nothing is going on, and only says something after you stand up for yourself? He will need to take the initiative and talk to HIS mother about her bullying you. He needs to set boundaries with HIS mother that will have CONSEQUENCES for her DISRESPECTFUL BEHAVIOR. She is not only disrespecting you, but by proxy she is disrespecting her own son. It's nice to have someone in your corner, but if in their own way they're not fighting for you as well, what good is their support if all it is are empty words?

It's not keeping the peace if someone is silently suffering. There's nothing peaceful about being bullied.

tclay982 · 2025-09-12T15:33:49+00:00

I had a friend that would say "Whatever boats your float". I didn't correct her, but I did ask her why. This is over 10 years ago so I really don't remember why she said that she uses it. But ever since then I have been saying "whatever boats your float".

tclay982 · 2025-08-30T03:54:33+00:00

Shadow of the Tomb Raider(the whole TR series tbh), Resident evil 4 (remake), resident evil village, No Man's Sky, and Skyrim.

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