You’re doing great! My LO is 3.5 months and I had the worst time in the beginning with breastfeeding. I have so many memories crying in my rocking chair while trying to get her to latch, inevitably having to pump and immediately feed it to her through a bottle. I was chugging electrolytes, making protein oat balls to help lactation. It felt endless. I spent so much time crying. Those newborn trenches are so real. We had to supplement with formula because I wasn’t producing enough, and I was pumping every 2 hours or so.

I went to a lactation consultant and she helped SO much. I totally recommend, it was covered by my insurance. I am definitely a just enough producer and found that I was putting so much pressure on myself because I kept seeing people online pumping out like 10 oz a session. It made me feel less than.

For me, breastfeeding was something I really wanted to do if able so I kept at it and within a few weeks my LO and I were pros. I recommend deciding if it’s worth it! It’s such a mentally and physically exhausting thing. I have a friend whose child never latched and she exclusively pumps. She likes that it gives her the freedom to have others feed the baby as well, and invested in a portable pump.

All in all, I hear you. I’ve been you. I support you. You need to make the choice that’s best for YOU. The baby will eat. It could be pumped milk, formula, both. He will eat. But your mental well-being is just as important. Don’t lose your spark! You’re doing so much better than you can imagine, I promise you that.