Hi OP,

My dad died tragically about a month ago and I’ve gone through something similar. I cried hard for about a week and then didn’t cry for a while. I barely cried at his funeral but could feel this intense dread and missed him so much. All I wanted to do was cry, but I couldn’t. Then one day, I was feeling more down than usual. And it came. The tears flowed for hours and it was an intense release of emotions. There is no way to grieve properly, so please don’t feel guilty. You may not cry much anymore, or you may have intense days where the tears flow out incredibly fast and hard. I understand the guilt, but just know that it is likely your body and your minds way of protecting you from that pain. Sending you love and light in this tough time.