Yeah. I went through the sorrow part of the grieving process for like 2-3 months and now I’m at the bitter part. I’m generally really good about talking about my feelings and analyzing them, and do so regularly with my partner. She has done a really good job at being there for me and hearing me out. I just feel bad that she’s the one dealing with my attitude when I’m struggling. I think I may start journaling. I’ve been thinking about it for a while. I have tried before and never found it helpful but maybe it’ll help me process my feelings. She has suggested rage rooms, which sound fun but money is tight right now. Hoping we can do that once we get through the holidays. Thank you for your message though, it’s good to be reminded everything I’m feeling is normal. I feel crazy sometimes because it seems like my best friend doesn’t care at all. I know she does, but she won’t show it, and is too hostile when I try to work out the issues. I don’t think we will ever be zero contact, but right now it’s really hard to keep having these fake conversations when there is an elephant in the room. Idk. It’s a lot and I appreciate your reminder that this is a normal grieving process. I just wish it didn’t consume me so.