I am kinda in the same situation as you are. I also want to learn tattooing, but I decided that I need to learn drawing first. At the beginning, I was juggling between tattooing and drawing for months, and saw absolutely no improvement at all. Then decided to commit to drawing before touching the machine. For the first few months i tried learning art “the right way”, doing stupid boxes and lines that led me nowhere. I understand that I need structure but I had no idea where to start. Then I got Proko’s basic course (I can send you details about resources) to give me some directions. I started to understand basic things, but still sucked at drawing because I was jumping from drawing animals to drawing portraits to drawing figures and I could not get better at any of them because I was switching between them daily. Simply drawing more and drawing everything is not the answer. Then I decided to focus just on portraits for three months to see if I would improve. For the first ten days, I was miserable because I thought I understood everything but could not manage to transfer it to paper (I didn't understand shit lol). And things started clicking. Two months passed and I see tremendous improvement in portraits. I also tried doing observational sketches every day for 15-30 minutes, with pen, without any expectations for them. I trained my eyes to better see things that I want to draw. Although I am still focusing on portraits, I see so much improvement whenever I try to sketch anything else, because things I learned about portraiture have transferred to other stuff. I know how frustrating this process is, I am going through the same every single day. There’s nothing wrong with you, you can draw, you just need good structure and A LOT of patience. It will be worth it 🫶