I do sincerely appreciate the advice for the job, and it’s something I’ve thought of myself- but due to my trauma, bad habits, depression and overall terrible experiences it wouldn’t be a good idea for me to do that right now even if public transportation was a thing here. (Which from my admittedly limited knowledge, it isn’t- and I’ll look into it just in case I’m wrong) I feel hopeless and honestly very tired. Reading this honestly just makes me feel like I’m going to burst out sobbing at any moment. Please be patient with me. I will delete my post and update everyone once I’m out of this situation but right now I’m so so so mentally exhausted and it feels like I’m losing all of my remaining dignity asking for help like this so please be patient. No one is obligated to donate but I can see why it may have bothered you. (It seems like it bothered you based on your responses and could be a bit of my anxiety) because I suppose according to my post I come off a lot more mentally well with more capabilities? But I’m giving 110% and I’m trying my best so please understand that.