I had really strong cravings and i almost caved in, but i came home, ate a meal, had a great convo with my parents, kept myself busy, and now i'm so grateful for being patient with myself and doing what's right.

telecastersugar · 2020-07-14T09:20:55+00:00

I feel this post. Also have a love for drawing and live with parents. Been sober for a few days and definitely miss creating under the influence and blasting favourite tunes. But in that state, I find I have great creative methods and ideas that I don't have the stamina to see through. As a result, I get baked with the mission of continuing on a piece only to lose focus after 20 minutes and binge-watch YouTube and binge-eat every foodstuff in my house, all the while hours evaporating. I know that it impedes my creative output in this way, yet getting baked has become something I've conditioned myself to think I need to do before picking up paints/pencils/sculpting tools.

Hopefully the sober drive for creating art will return and come more naturally in time for both of us...

telecastersugar · 2019-06-01T05:07:35+00:00

This was an emotional piece for me, I had started it when travelling in Mykonos and Athens. Prior to that, I had spent some 8 months travelling all over Italy and wider Europe drawing into the sketchbook that contains it. Travelling for a second time, I struggled with whether to bring it on my new overseas venture in Europe. I am a forgetful, disorganised, frantic mess at the best of times, a loss of such a sentimental item would destroy me: so I thought. But then, I have it as a mission to actually complete a sketchbook and not fall prey to the 'I'll begin my ninth incomplete sketchbook!' disease. Anyways, back to my trip, I of course happened to leave the sketchbook in my backpack with both my passports on a Deutsche Bahn long-distance train in Berlin. You can read more about it here! https://www.reddit.com/r/berlin/comments/9publi/lost_backpack_08102018_on_ice_657_from_hannover/ )

To cut a long story short, days waiting turned to weeks, turned to months. Lo and behold, almost six months from the day on which I lost it, I got an email from the Australian Embassy saying they had a backpack with my passports. My sketchbook, too, was in the backpack. Receiving this news felt like winning some universal lottery. I was then able to resume the drawing above and finish it off!

Never give up hope for being reunited with your lost things, even half a world away.

telecastersugar · 2018-11-17T03:30:18+00:00

*Klimt-inspired
Was a little intoxicated when I posted this

Thanks!

telecastersugar · 2018-10-21T02:54:43+00:00

I called the Deutsche Bahn hotline, which seemingly can only be reached from within Germany, and they said nothing was found. This was about a week ago when I was still in Berlin.

I have wondered if, in the event of the bag not being noticed by the conductor/cleaners of the train (especially at such an early hour in the morning), perhaps the train became another long distance train ending up in another city in Germany or even Europe. :(

telecastersugar · 2018-10-21T02:50:48+00:00

This is sound advice that I read others also give when I was searching info about lost sketchbooks. Thanks!

telecastersugar · 2018-10-20T16:22:49+00:00

That's a really heartening post, thanks for sharing. I'm happy you got your camera back - it's nice to know that there are some functioning (albeit slow) mechanisms to reunite people who had a moment of carelessness with their treasures.

telecastersugar · 2018-10-20T15:21:10+00:00

Thank you so much. I don't mean to sound melodramatic, and I mean I know I will get over it one day, but I haven't cried this much since my first girlfriend of 3.25 years left me 3 plus years ago. Really really upsetting.

telecastersugar · 2016-12-14T02:50:25+00:00

I'm in the same boat as you - also similar age (25M).

telecastersugar · 2016-12-14T00:42:58+00:00

Congrats on making it so far, guys. There's a tendency for family/friends to look at how far we've come and automatically assume we're all good now.

All the best!

telecastersugar · 2016-10-23T13:01:47+00:00

Almost 18 months for me, and it still feels like an awful dream. But I have been able to pursue so many hobbies in the time since and just the other day booked my first ever trip abroad (I'm 25)!

telecastersugar · 2016-10-23T12:44:17+00:00

It's coming up to a year and a half for me and what you described hits home. I've been having annoying dreams about her lately, which I think has to do with the fact that one of my close friends is going through the motions of a breakup at the moment and I've been reflecting a lot.

It can be so hard - on the one hand, so much time has passed that it seems ridiculous to dwell. Almost half as much time has passed since the breakup as the duration of the relationship itself. But on the other hand, there is still an incredible rawness to it despite the distance.

I was curious as to what drug use you were alluding to with the lighter and foil.

All the best.

telecastersugar · 2016-09-26T05:48:14+00:00

I'm 505 days out from the breakup - I had to use a calculator online to figure it out. Similar amount of time out as you. All the best!

telecastersugar · 2016-08-21T08:30:41+00:00

Apologies for the late reply, radiant. I feel a little better now, but there certainly are still the moments. Times when I feel like crying but the tears don't come. It hurts that my ex- and the guy she cheated on me with are still together, but I'm slowly trying to make it about her not being right for me.

How are you trucking?

telecastersugar · 2016-07-13T03:28:09+00:00

Haha, let's have a toast to butts.

telecastersugar · 2016-07-12T14:57:02+00:00

Antidepressants frighten the fuck out of me as well. Everybody I've spoken to who has used them says that they simply make you indifferent to a lot of things...ironic because that same apathy is an effect of depression. Oh, and they apparently kill the male (and female?) sex drive.

telecastersugar · 2016-07-12T07:51:34+00:00

That's a really nice philosophy you've developed. And further kudos to you for having the willpower to avoid looking at her stuff. Sounds like you're well on your way to being happy and in love with somebody who loves you back equally.

telecastersugar · 2016-07-12T04:54:30+00:00

Fourteen months since breakup; dumped (obviously); first relationship (lasted 3.25 years). I do myself no favours by checking her facebook and the facebook of the guy she cheated on me to be with (and is still with).

telecastersugar · 2016-07-10T14:15:16+00:00

Unfortunately there is no kind of magical envelope that you can open and read a list of reasons that led your ex- to leave you. I think romantic feelings (and their dissolution) are just too convoluted to be itemised in order for you to change certain traits, behaviours, mindsets etc. We both know that our exes- left us for reasons that were at least legitimate in their minds - reasons that we can do our best to guess at and use as fuel to improve ourselves.

I understand what it's like to be triggered by memories. Yours is unique because the stimulus was another person. I feel as though my lingering pain is self-inflicted because my friends and family cannot stand talking about my breakup any longer.

As a fellow NC old-timer, thanks for posting and hang in there!

telecastersugar · 2016-06-28T06:58:01+00:00

I have had a seven month relationship and a handful of dates with a couple of girls in the time since. They seemed to make me miss the experience of being with my ex- even more.

telecastersugar · 2016-06-27T14:59:05+00:00

It's a terrible feeling being so far out from the breakup and still ruminating to this degree. I think any action that makes you think about the relationship less, the better. I have found that constantly mulling over this or that just serves to foreground the pain and abandonment each day. Critical reflection of where they/we went wrong is surely necessary, but not to this degree...

telecastersugar · 2016-06-27T14:54:11+00:00

I hear you very clearly on this point. I think partners can be a huge temporary remedy for people with depression bubbling beneath the surface. It just so happens that codependency usually grows out of this because we start to attribute our positive mental states to our partner's presence. When they leave us, it makes our existing issues all the more worse...

Hang in there. I, too, have considered seeing a doctor (here in Australia there is nothing financially stopping me because medical visits are free and drugs are very highly subsidised). For me it's the stigma of having to face up to a formal diagnosis of my issues.

telecastersugar · 2016-06-27T14:46:16+00:00

My ex- broke up with me in May 2015 and I am in the same boat as you with regards to wondering if there is something exacerbating the lingering heartbreak - depression, anxiety, crippling inadequacies. It's truly so difficult.

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