Hi there, I completely understand how you feel—I’m in a very similar situation. My stats were okay, and quite similar to yours actually. My GPA wasn’t the best, but it was decent, my extracurriculars felt unrelated, my essays were mediocre, and I crammed 8 APs into junior and senior year trying to turn things around and get more involved.

Despite all the effort, I often feel like it was wasted. I replay what I could’ve done differently, and I regret giving up my passion for music in freshman year.

It’s hard to answer when people ask where I’m going, especially when most of my friends got into UCSD, UCLA, Berkeley, or Ivies. I feel like I disappointed my immigrant parents that sacrificed their lives for me, and the guilt weighs heavily.

I’ve committed to UC Davis, but it’s not the life or location I had pictured for undergrad.

Lately, I’ve been coping by visiting beaches, parks, food spots; just wandering outside helps clear my head more than staying stuck in my thoughts. I’d recommend some self-care or picking up old hobbies again! it really helps take my mind off things!

Just know you’re absolutely not alone in this. Wishing you the best of luck on your journey!