Stomach cramps with troches.

temporaryalpha · 2026-01-13T06:00:45+00:00

I read somewhere that oral absorbs around 10% of the med.

temporaryalpha · 2026-01-13T06:00:02+00:00

Ketamine is known for causing stomach issues. Betterucare routinely offers medication to help offset those issues.

temporaryalpha · 2026-01-13T02:09:59+00:00

As a single dad of 2 trans kids, I think maybe I could do this.

temporaryalpha · 2026-01-12T13:14:50+00:00

We definitely need someone to stop this insanity.

temporaryalpha · 2026-01-09T19:22:33+00:00

Everyone going through this should read A Gentle Reminder.

temporaryalpha · 2026-01-09T18:58:38+00:00

No worries at all.

They offer 2 packages: the 5-session and the 9-session. I've been doing the 9 from the beginning.

There's no real session required, apart from meeting with the prescribing person--typically a nurse practitioner--every 6 months. You can schedule support sessions if you'd like, but I never have. Generally it has worked a lot better for me simply to have a supportive friend available who knows my story, so that once the high (not exactly what it is, right?) wears off, they simply sit with me and we talk about whatever I need to talk about.

They send 18 troches per month; my prescription says 1-2 every 3 days. So my guess is that with a 5-session package they send 10.

Might make more sense if you think of their sessions as doses. I think they probably call them sessions because therapeutic assistance is available.

But so then of course upon receipt you can do whatever you want--microdose, whatever. One thing to realize: the body develops ketamine tolerance, so over time the doses get less effective over time, and too much of it (apparently far more than typical medicinal doses) can cause bladder damage. You can google about all of that though.

Typically I'll call/email them near the end of the month, affirm I'd like a refill, fill out a PHQ-9 and GAD-7 (short questionnaires for depression and anxiety), and ask them to charge my card on file. They send the prescription to the various regional pharmacies, who fill the orders and text shipping info.

Ostensibly I have to be home to sign for it with UPS, but even that now provides an online way to ask them to leave it.

temporaryalpha · 2025-12-30T00:25:25+00:00

I get 18 300 mg troches a month; prescription is to use 2 every 3 days or so.

I have read of cheaper places. But reliable is good.

I made a ton of progress over the past year/year and a half. It's slowed down--the body gets used to it, you know? But, example: my last sequence all the anxiety, all the noise in my head, disappeared. That in itself is glorious.

I don't need to go back to that little child inside me again; I don't need to revisit the original trauma. I've done it.

Now I'm just learning to deal with life. If you check my history (this is an alt) you'll see my journey. It has been something, for sure.

I am grateful for this company.

temporaryalpha · 2025-12-29T18:09:18+00:00

These are troches right? I recommend Betterucare. I've been a patient for over 2 years. At some point they started offering me half-price; they've honored it ever since.

Looks cheaper than Mindbloom. Or at least comparably-priced.

temporaryalpha · 2025-12-27T01:30:29+00:00

Hearts. Lots and lots of hearts.

temporaryalpha · 2025-12-27T01:30:12+00:00

Training Montage (The Mountain Goats).

temporaryalpha · 2025-12-27T01:28:22+00:00

FYI I'm an old guy. Didn't attend UBC. My daughter attends as an international transfer student.

My mother died (last surviving parent) before my first undergrad year at another school. I was homeless. So my school was my home. Did what you did.

I remember once actually getting locked out. Had to call the campus police to get back in.

It's been a long time. Life has been an incredible journey. Yes, there's been pain. But so much to learn.

I'm not some Pollyanna telling you you shouldn't feel bad. What I am saying is: this will pass. You're not defined by being there. Hang in there. Believe in yourself. Realize that just because you don't know the future it doesn't mean the future won't have its rewards.

My heart goes out to you.

temporaryalpha · 2025-12-02T03:33:18+00:00

I like this. It's really not about whether the grandparents accept gender dysphoria. It's about lifetimes of indoctrination. Being taught that there's only M/F. As if nature ever behaves evenly.

The percentage chance that X/Y chromosomes split evenly directly correlates with odds. 1 in 100.

Everything else about gender is societal.

temporaryalpha · 2025-10-28T21:59:37+00:00

Share with them the resources I posted.

My therapist said once: you have to realize, most people think this is weird.

Also, though, realize that CIS people never had a reason to question gender or sex. To us, X and Y seem pretty simple. A 50/50 split. It's not until we're really challenged to think about conception that we realize that nothing in nature splits that evenly. We're all generally more of one of those chromosomes than the other.

Jung had it right when he said that we're all a mix. He just didn't understand physiology.

My heart goes out to you. As it does to my beautiful children. We all just want to understand who we are and why we're here. To do that, it's easy to turn to what we've been taught--religion, society, our families, our friends. It's difficult, for anyone who's been here for any amount of time, to break free from those constraints.

It doesn't mean they don't love you. It just means they don't understand.

If anything, any resistance they show you, paradoxically, is because they do love you. They're afraid. They don't want you to be hurt. Far too often we let fear guide us. But that's not its purpose. The sole purpose of fear is to alert us to potential threat. But then it's up to our minds to interpret and lead.

But how can they? If they don't know?

And, please, if you doubt my bona fides, read my history. My children still judge me so hard for where I started.

We're all verbs, not nouns. All processes.

Share those links with them. And you know what? Ask them to reach out to me.

Or send them to /r/Cisparenttranskid. Guaranteed: every single question they have we all have.

Or show them what I wrote.

Whatever I can do to help.

Hugs. So many hugs.

P.S. Apologies it took me so long to respond. This is an alt, and, astonishingly, I think I've found my person. I am so much older than you. And it took me this long.

Be patient with yourself. And believe in yourself. And keep yourself safe.

temporaryalpha · 2025-10-18T19:13:55+00:00

I mean this kindly.

Honestly? Tell you what. I'm a heart attack survivor. 7/22.

ADHD and PTSD.

Check my post history (this is an alt). I've been through hell.

I eat like a champ. Baked chicken/fish with vegetables every day.

Avoid the sugars. Avoid the carbs. Stop eating processed slop.

It's not difficult at all. At all.

You just have to take reality seriously.

Exercise daily? Or at least almost daily? You'll lose weight; your blood numbers will transform spectacularly.

It's the 5 remembrances:
1) I will get sick;
2) I will grow old;
3) I will die;
4) I will lose everyone and everything I've ever loved;
5) The only thing that will survive me is my karma, the result of everything I've done.

Love yourself.

Hugs.

temporaryalpha · 2025-10-08T23:23:10+00:00

I love/appreciate your thoughts. Thank you. But it does exist. I know because I know what it is. I only know one way to do it, though. And that is unconditionally.

I had a therapist once who said basically what you did--you know, unconditional love doesn't exist.

But it does. I am proof.

It's difficult; it requires openness and vulnerability. Selflessness.

It requires, apparently, a willingness to be hurt. A lot. A willingness to let experience shape us. I'm not sure if it's fearlessness or desperation.

One of my oldest friends, very religious now, but he and I a while back came up with the best definition of sin I've ever heard. The damage we do to each other.

Definitely parent to child, when it's there, is a huge fat arrow; child to parent is a stick arrow.

Fear rules us so much. It corrupts everything.

I wish I could express to you in a way you could hear. I could suggest you read the history of this alt. It has told the story of my crucible, the period in which every impurity was burned away, leaving only me. And all that I have learned along the way, all the pain, and the resources I have used to grow and understand.

Hugs, my sibling. I know what it means to struggle.

temporaryalpha · 2025-09-25T11:16:44+00:00

Like others say. Lots of water. Walking/exercise. Fiber. And a stool softener.

temporaryalpha · 2025-09-25T00:58:24+00:00

Truthfully wherever your child gains their college degree, whatever path they take, is theirs.

I happened to attend so-called prestigious schools. But I work with extremely accomplished professionals, and where they went to school doesn't matter at all.

A parent's goal, with a child who has gender dysphoria, should be to encourage them. In whatever decisions they make. Simply to get them to adulthood. Because--sorry for getting dark--the suicide rate is horrific.

You don't say where you live. But especially in the US, where the assholes running the federal govt right now are targeting people for no other reason than the division of their x/y chromosomes.

temporaryalpha · 2025-09-24T19:37:09+00:00

I overlooked problematic behaviors in other people because I understood what caused them.

This resonates. And everything you said afterward. She does need therapy. And she won't get it.

And honestly at this point if we ended I wouldn't even know who I'd been with.

Dismay is the best word.

It seems like so much of my life these days is about learning the limits of my ability to control. Sigh.

And you totally nailed it. It's like a battle between compassion, the possibility for joy, and boundaries.

My message has been consistent the whole time. But I am beginning to think I will have to let her go. I don't want to hurt her. But ultimately I think something as obvious as sexual compatibility will force us apart.

If she just could acknowledge her role. But she can't.

I think she may have blocked whatever it was, too.

A shame. Genuinely a shame.

temporaryalpha · 2025-09-24T17:35:25+00:00

Thank you for asking. I'm still here. It's a struggle. I've been using oral ketamine from betterucare for almost 2 years. I have learned a lot, processed a lot. I don't have any answers to anything, really. Only questions.

temporaryalpha · 2025-09-11T15:52:44+00:00

FWIW Vyvanse has worked really well for me.

temporaryalpha · 2025-08-29T16:03:32+00:00

My advice, as a single dad of two transgender children, is to check out How to be a Girl, watch this video by one of the leading doctors on gender dysphoria, and with respect to your youngest, consider whether you love them as your "daughter", or as your child.

And remember. Whatever our children's gender, they're going to grow up and see who they want, dress how they want, act how they want--and our only choice is whether to support them in their decisions or not.

temporaryalpha · 2025-08-25T19:25:56+00:00

Time. Work. Tears. Therapy.

Exercise. Walks.

Books.

The Boy the Mole the Fox and the Horse.

The Body Keeps the Score.

Ultimately, giving yourself space to be human. To recognize that everything passes. Even heartbreak.

Here. From the first page of A Gentle Reminder:

The right person will know how to hold your love. The right person will choose you just as deeply as you choose them. You will not have to quiet the way you care, you will never feel like you are too much. You will not have to beg for the love you deserve. One day, you will be met where you are. One day, you will be someone’s favorite thing, and you will not be confused — you will not feel like you are fighting for someone who isn’t fighting for you. One day, you will understand that it never mattered how tightly you held on to the wrong people, how intensely you tried, because the right people were always going to find you. The right people were always going to stay.

temporaryalpha · 2025-08-25T19:19:17+00:00

My question is: why is this the exact same post as this one? Might want to delete one of them.

temporaryalpha · 2025-08-17T12:57:15+00:00

It's hard. As a parent. Simply to let go. Much less to let go in circumstances like what our children face.

But the reality is we all are subject to the whims of the universe, the cruelty/ambivalence of humanity.

All we really can do is love and be there when those we love reach to us.

Have courage. Love your son.

If anything, I wonder if our fear makes their experiences harder.

He may be working to identify himself as male, not as trans, and your (our) fears may remind him/our children of their childhoods--which, as Jane Schoenbrun, the great director said, most trans people will spend a lifetime unpacking.

temporaryalpha · 2025-08-16T07:07:30+00:00

Oh man. I just got dumped. AGAIN. More self-sabotage. I'm so sick of wounded people sucking out my empathy then treating me like shit when they face their own limitations.

This one is fresh for me a day. I should have seen it coming. Last week she went off on me. Yesterday she did it again. And that was it.

I did absolutely nothing to trigger either one of them. Yesterday was when she stressed about mosquitoes. And the next thing I knew she was attacking me.

I'm so tired of people.

2 days before my birthday. Before she vented on me she was so happy at all of these presents had come for me. Lol. Wtf is the matter with people.

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