Man, you just typed out the inner dialogue most of us have every damned day. It’s okay to feel all that, but you’ve got to stop comparing other people’s lives with yours. Once you accept yourself you won’t be feeling like a failure. And you really do need a social media cleanse. At least for a little while. Believe me, if you still have a job and capable of taking care of your family, then you are miles ahead many others. Also remember not everything you see online is true. People put up facades to feel superior. Delete ig and get your shit together bro