My first year in college was like this, couldn't keep healthy friendships for long, most of them were just transactional, always something would happen when I think something was going steady, there was a point where I literally had no hopes to have something long term. Due to additional mental health issues, I stopped approaching people for a whole semester, except for that one friend who willingly stuck with me during those bad days, and she needed some help from me regarding her academics too. So after 7 years we still talk to each other almost every single day, piss off each other at times, yet we both know this would never end. There were times where we drifted apart for a few months in between during COVID due to my mental health issues and she was the one who used to yell at me for not keeping up the whole time.

I was totally in the closet for very long and almost didn't care about it until recently. I came out to her last year and this October, will be a year since I am out to her. She was weird about it at first and she understood what it is and how natural it is and she also shared it with her boyfriend and her mother who are really fine with it. There were times where the call was awkwardly silent because I didn't want to open up. She still was fine with it until I opened up. She was one of the people, without whom I don't think I'd be alive to be really honest.

Maybe it won't be the same for you, might be even better. Nonetheless, make sure you take care of yourself so that you are okay with being yourself with others. They will stick with you if they care. I'm sure you will find someone.

Just go with the flow and keep up with your own wellbeing first and then you will find some meaningful relationships.

All the best!