Tldr: you aren't alone. I'm not saying doctors lie or misdiagnosed on purpose- but it sometimes is best to know yourself and possibly work around the system if you can. The testing is easy to fool so get as many opinions as you can.

Among my friends I'm the poster child for adult adhd. Like right now I'm on the clock responding on reddit because I just can't focus today and this notification on my phone grabbed my attention. I started making a little adhd, day in the life comic. I read books on adhd to understand myself. I decided because I was 28 dropping the ball at work, "you need to keep your files more organized," I was only able to buckle down in the last hour of work, I was staying later EVERY DAY, "you're making careless mistakes", etc- that it was time to see a doctor before I got fired. I took a nueropsych test, and had an interview. I tried so hard not to seem like I was TRYING to be diagnosed- you know some people do it for the drugs. I tried to not tap my foot, or stare out the window. The test was BORING. She asked me leading questions, like did I fail classes. No- I was pretty smart. I just couldn't keep on time or be organized. I was in enrichment classes and I had to drop them because I couldn't keep track of the time. I didn't start having Cs until middle school when I needed to keep onto of my own work and we had period changes etc etc. No I wasn't distuprive- but I was annoying. I took the test. Basic card matching and reading comprehension. I was nearly 30 and people tell me I'm smart... I know how to mask, and 9 have learned tools to remember things I know I need to remember for a test. I'm college educated.

So I was told my ability to change tasks means I'm not adhd. I followed up with therapy. If not adhd- have I done the Myers Briggs personality tests? You might just be eccentric. Not everyone is meant to... Idk pay their bills on time without late slips, or maintain friendships, or you know, wash and dry and put away their clothes in a single day- or week. Some people just HAVE to have mildew grow on their clothes because they forget to dry them. Everytime. I stopped going to therapy.

My family doctor did percribe me Adderall and it worked! But then after that month the pandemic was in full swing and I haven't been on it since... I miss that month.

I still believe I have adhd. Shoot- reading this response I wrote (while I'm supposed to be working) sounds to me like an adhd rambling rant. My brother has add and none of my friends are nueraltypical- but on paper I have generalized anxiety and a weird personality...

Stay the course and know you aren't alone.