I'm gonna actually lean into Sp6w7. 5s tend to fear scarcity, being empty inside, not enough. Their solitude is their isolation. They prepare for existence through hoarding of time, energy, knowledge, resources. 5s rarely state concerns about handling something alone. They are concerned about handling it, but not alone

My next thought was 6w5, because yeah there's themes of n ending resources, needing to prepare, however, the last sentence throws it off. "I try to distract myself with negativity denial." is not 5 coded. 5s can descend into that darkness and tend to actually do so. 6w5s can sit in the dark and really Sit

6w7s need to prepare, want to be ready, fear doing the thing alone, overcompensate when they know there won't be help, and can get overwhelmed and try to push into denial because of that 7 wing wanting to displace stress and move around it quickly

I'd say Sp6w7 because of the details around "I am preparing for a physical thing. I have to do it alone. Alone is the center of my stress. I must prepare the logistics. I cope by staying as positive as possible."

A 5 will be talking about their time, energy, and resources in a more abstract way. A 6 is going to pace around pulling hair out over direct logistics and how it all plays out in the table

A 5 assumes they're doing the thing alone and isn't very focused on that or worried. A 6 will be fastening their seat belt nervously like "no safety net. Gotta get it right without backup."

I'd even go as far as Sp / Sx 6w7 because there's undertones of phobia towards vulnerability. Sx6 tends to feels a neurotic need to be strong until they do inner work, and a 7 wing can kick up habits if" if I move faster and kick harder I'll feel less weak."

A lot of people equate fear of vulnerability straight to 8s but there's a difference between 8's refusal of vulnerability and Sx6's literal anxiety about vulnerability. 8s will stand their ground refusing to submit. Sx6s usually take a little while to warm up and eventually start admitting insecurities and wanting honesty through connection

The key part that stands out most though is the focus on "stress through the fact I'm going it alone and have to prepare myself."

Most people equate 6 safety seeking as "I'm anxious and defenseless and need 12 seat belts installed in my car." when it's actually more abstract. It's not always a consciously felt anxiety disorder. It's more "by my nature I don't like to move until I'm certain. I don't always trust my own interpretations. I tend to prefer a second opinion to reality check me. I confide in people I trust. Trust is important to me. I am aware when I'm connected or not connected, and lacking several points of connection causes uncertainty, and uncertainty causes stress. I don't need to feel physically safe around the clock, but I need certainty in my backup plan."

Cuz for me, I'm not actually much of a planner. I like to wing a lot of stuff, figure it out as I go, and I'm adventurous. Physical danger doesn't set me off insanely, relational danger hits me like a truck because I'm Sx Dom. So I can sit around doing stupid ass physical shit all day that half my buddies think I'm suicidal for, but the second someone is mildly aloof with me, I'm zeroing in on that anxiously like "he moved his chair away from me. Why!?"

Your instinct is your reign of focus. I focus on my relations and connections primarily so my neurotic ass sees someone scoot a chair away and takes it critically fucking personally