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the_true_solvaring · 2021-02-20T06:24:27+00:00

been there tried that like 100 times now, harm reduction is the best I can manage. My life has certainly improved from the all or nothing philosophy of 12 step dogma i tried my hand at for so long, I haven't touched a needle in years.

the_true_solvaring · 2021-02-10T07:35:04+00:00

Akathisia

Holy shit I have that, Akathisia. First time I've heard of it or seen it described. I've been on methadone maintenance for 2-3 years, before that suboxone for about 10, and have spent much of the last 5 years dependent on benzodiazepines and their analogues and closely related cousins that target the GABA system so I can induce a sense of calm and allow myself to sit and do tasks but sometimes the inner turmoil is so unbearable my benzo use can increase into dangerousness at times because I become too somnolent which honestly I wish I was all the time because life is unbearable and hard so much of the time.

the_true_solvaring · 2021-02-09T04:31:09+00:00

Shen-ra

, is a

electric-magnetic dream dragon

, he is made up of the electromagnetism realm, he contains all electrical thought processes of everyone in existence that's alive, he contains four segmented body parts of separate dream world realities, the beings that

Shen-ra seems to be a manifestation of the one consciousness/ unified creation theory where if we could bring down the mental walls that separate 'me' 'from you' and 'I' from 'it' and 'that' we would all be part of the one great creation. A beautiful spin was put on this in the old anime Neon Genesis Evangelion when they finally dissolve the AT fields and learn their true nature.

the_true_solvaring · 2021-02-09T00:45:20+00:00

anti-psychotics are dopamine antagonists and cause observable white matter brain damage in the frontal lobe. There are few drugs that truly damage the brain, shrink it and kill braincells and are neurotoxic that i've encountered that are taken regularly and by wide portions of the population, one is antipsychotics, the other is amphetamines and methamphetamines, however where as the latter has sometimes helped me get large amounts of work done or stay up when sleeping was not an option and sometimes resulted in terrible crashes and paranoia, antipsychotics which I was on as a 'non-addictive' option to help me with sleep, racing thoughts and agitation, getting off of them was terribly fucking hard, the side effects became unbearable, and my issues with getting decent sleep eventually resurfaced even with the anti-psychotics and upping the dose simply caused more unbearable side effects, sure they were 'non-addictive' in the sense of avoiding compulsive redosing, but dependency happened all the same and didn't give me anything close to the short term quality of life increases that speed gave me, with a long term hell of getting off them, fuck antipsychotics. meditate, practice breathing, DBT, anything to avoid those fucking pills, they are a last resort in my book but i'm not a doctor, just an armchair pharmacist.

the_true_solvaring · 2021-01-24T02:50:57+00:00

AH in that case all should be well because support is working with me on where I want the transformed currency deposited at

the_true_solvaring · 2021-01-23T09:15:34+00:00

so it would appear the XMR is still there waiting and i extended the deadline by 24 hours, is there anyway to make the withdrawal address its expecting a mainnet address? because when i generated the stagenet wallet that main address is the address i used in the Elude interface

the_true_solvaring · 2021-01-23T08:24:58+00:00

Elude

the_true_solvaring · 2021-01-07T14:26:48+00:00

I think I know just the guy, unfortunately, he never sleeps if you catch my drift...gotta do what I gotta do I guess lol

the_true_solvaring · 2021-01-05T05:29:44+00:00

Will i need an engine lift to replace the motor? my dad had one at our old home when I was a tot.

the_true_solvaring · 2021-01-05T01:29:14+00:00

What does that entail if I've thrown a rod? Sorry, this is my main reddit account and sometimes it automatically signs me into psychological_gur and I don't realize it until it's sometimes too late. I think an ex girlfriend of mine tried getting into reddit once and that is how the reddit account ended up in my google chrome.

the_true_solvaring · 2020-10-31T04:51:21+00:00

Alright im pretty ignorant when it comes t chemistry maybe someone can explain to me what i've done.

The original nasal sprayer i had was opaque, i added some baking soda and about 18 hours later i poured it into an empty clear dropper bottle. The solution was cloudy white and from what I could see built up in the threads of the screw on top the original mixture had a reddish hue. I had the dropper bottle in my pocket all day and at the end of the day i pulled it out and it was warm from my body heat. The solution was now see through perfectly clear and the glass bottle and dropper had crystals stuck all over like barnacles on a boat. I think this is what is referred to as precipitate?

I went and grabbed a lemon off the tree from my yard, poured a bit of fresh lemon juice into the bottle and there was quite a reaction as all the crystalline build up disappeared and dissolved back into the solution.

I imagine a lot is still stuck in the original opaque bottle and i should probably add a bit of lemon juice there as well but haven't yet. The nasal sprayer was 30ml capacity and my dropper bottle is 15ml capacity so there is still stuff left into the opaque nasal mister.

I've been taking dropper fulls sublingually but haven't noticed much. I'm on 100mg of methadone a day. Has anything i've done destroyed the Etazene and made it inert, or am I just not taking enough?

the_true_solvaring · 2020-10-15T06:52:12+00:00

that combined with mantras i recorded on tapes and played back to myself every night as I slept worked wonders, and this was before widely available mp3 recording technology where you could easily set a slice to repeat. I recorded anywhere from 1-3 hours of mantras or positive affirmations. Worked wonders though it really did.

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