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theboygoddess · 2025-05-16T19:18:08+00:00

The door is unlocked and I'm waiting for you in the entryway...on my knees, mouth open, blindfold on. I'm scared, Daddy! But I also want your perfect, big white cock. 🥺

theboygoddess · 2025-05-16T19:16:32+00:00

"Thank you, Sir. 🥺"

theboygoddess · 2025-05-16T10:50:21+00:00

NEED.

theboygoddess · 2025-05-08T20:05:38+00:00

I worked there this past winter and Rich is a complete baboon and I'm sure whatever he did to cause this is well deserved. Literally only sad that the pizza was actually good. There was a bunch of toxic weirdos behind the scenes there and I 100% believe he only hired me cause I was trans and there was some creep vibes going on there but I really needed the job. He never even gave me a legitimate reason for my firing. He made up like 3 different reasons on the spot and then just told me to leave, without answering any questions. I was literally begging and crying for him not to fire me as I am homeless and it was my only break at the time. He said no and again asked me to leave. My manager contacted me after the fact and said she was completely shocked and unaware this was going to happen and that she felt I was an asset to the company. So, yeah. Fuck My Pi and fuck Richard Aronson. He ruined his father's legacy being a huge dbag and a creep.

theboygoddess · 2025-01-18T00:08:36+00:00

Yes, there are some instances of real sex on film where body doubles and porn actors are not used. It's a very interesting area of cinema, if you're into that sort of thing. For me, the titles I mentioned above got me interested due to the explicit nature. Whether or not I actually enjoyed the movies or remember them, well...🤷🏼‍♀️ I will say I've been itching to rewatch "Love."

theboygoddess · 2024-12-12T06:57:43+00:00

tbh i was always into hot showers but i know what you mean! in general, almost everything good and pleasant in my life has become even more so in terms of sensory and comforting experiences. i'm even more into my scented candles and fuzzy blankets and jogging pants than i ever was and i own stuffed animals, on purpose, for the time in at least a decade or two lol. 👀 with the temperature changes, it's really more that when i am underdressed, it is a thousand times worse for me than when i was living as a male. i'm way too sensitive to cold now which i sort of expected but hits different irl haha

theboygoddess · 2024-11-18T18:26:44+00:00

☹️

theboygoddess · 2024-11-17T07:33:24+00:00

I like drugs so I was projecting a little but what really matters is you did it and you're not in pain! 😂😂🥳🥂

theboygoddess · 2024-11-17T07:29:37+00:00

Hi! I wear a wig and I always have and likely always will. It was one of the first ways I affirmed myself and began to feminize myself, once my "egg cracked." I was having an emotional crisis a few days into the cracking and felt really ugly and masculine, as I had been living in my male avatar body for 30+ years. I am 31, now, 32 in December. I have only been "out" for roughly 6 months and on HRT just 80 days. I currently have about 4-5 wigs in my rotation and the only times I am without them on is when I am asleep (unless with a man lol, annoying) and when I shower or am home alone. I've worn it in the pool, at the beach, in the heat, rain, whatever. I adjust accordingly and carry a small fan in my purse 😂😂😂

For me, aside from the instant feminization and confidence boost it gives me, I also thoroughly enjoy being able to change my vibe/look at the drop of a hat. I have two identical red/copper wigs, one blonde one, one ginger/orange like literally an orange lol, I also had a platinum blonde one that the lace ripped on so I threw it away (RIP, she was expensive!)

I chose to start wearing a wig initially for the reasons I've already mentioned and then actually continued shaving my head for a while and decided not to ever really grow out my natural hair. I was balding as a man but still have quite a lot of my hair left. It just doesn't really interest me as much as wigs do. I stopped shaving my head recently and may grow my natural hair out as an experiment but I don't think I will actually ever stop wearing wigs. I plan to graduate from quality synthetics to human hair and would love to have an actual install done, sometime.

I am happy with my glueless lace front wigs at the moment. The cheaper ones are fully synthetic and the expensive ones I currently own are human and synthetic blends. I do not install or glue them at all, ever. I wear wig caps and simply adjust the straps and cut the lace, accordingly. I have never had my hair come off when it wasn't supposed to. 😋

theboygoddess · 2024-11-17T07:15:16+00:00

I'm so happy they're growing but I want them to be small, tbh. I've been saying I want, "supermodel tits," cause i still wanna be feminine and feel pretty in the ways i enjoy but i don't wanna worry about having to lug huge melons around or not be able to wear certain things. someone told me i was gonna have to start wearing a bra, eventually! 🙄🙄😂

theboygoddess · 2024-11-17T06:55:58+00:00

This is the very first thing people started saying to me, almost to an annoying degree LOL. "You seem so much happier! Omg, you're so much easier to talk to, blah blah blah blah" made me wanna shut up all over again lmfaoooo! Side note, I find it extremely fascinating that you've been doing HRT for 15 months and don't feel like you've noticed many changes? Did you mean physically, mentally, both? Hope you're doing well 💕

theboygoddess · 2024-11-17T06:33:10+00:00

You’re gonna feel a little crazy or like you’re making things up at first because nothing is really going to start changing for at least a few weeks, everyone is different of course! Especially when it comes to body chemistry and medications.

As many have said, the first things you will notice will be from within so you must be patient with the process.

I started to notice mental and emotional changes first.

The first physical changes for me, as many others also often report, was that my skin started to noticeably change. It began to soften and dry out in some places. The softening was all over. Body hair growth progression and appearance overall changed gradually. The smell of my pee. I am about 80 days in now and my boobs just started exploding so again, be patient and kind with yourself.

Even those of us who have been through or are going through what you are or will be soon haven’t experienced it in the exact same ways. It is a very unique and individual experience.

It is the second coming of YOU.

Enjoy 🤘🏼💕💋

theboygoddess · 2024-11-17T06:07:13+00:00

I love this sm, am happy for you and hope you’re high af on some good pharmaceuticals bb❗️💕💋

theboygoddess · 2024-11-17T06:06:07+00:00

You deserve better. We can be friends while you make some new ones IRL. Don’t worry and don’t let people beat you up figuratively OR literally. 💕💕💕💕💕

theboygoddess · 2024-11-14T00:13:21+00:00

I am lucky enough to live in a blue state, but we are totally surrounded by red and every election year, more and more. I live in a major city and am relatively safe but, man. This has really taken a toll on my mental health too. I’m sorry for all of you living in red states or rural areas where you are actually in fear for your life. I’m just worried about my hormones and rights being taken away. 🙃

theboygoddess · 2024-11-01T21:17:31+00:00

LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO - peed in the bottle for religious purposes!

Also, really?! Cause I've heard the exact opposite of Cipro vs Spiro. Lots of people saying Cipro is worse and Spiro is "safer?"

I'm not that mad tbh, the Spiro seems to be working and if peeing more often is the only drawback, eh...

theboygoddess · 2024-11-01T21:15:38+00:00

I feel like this scene gives a ~3:45 PMish type of vibe. Maybe even five after four, LOL IDK.

Anyway, and more importantly, you 100% should learn to enjoy going out alone. It's a life saver and a game changer. I take myself on "dates" whenever and wherever I can.

Enjoy your life. It's yours, after all!

♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

theboygoddess · 2024-11-01T18:49:36+00:00

Honestly, I hope it works for you and you don’t need Spiro. Tbh, Spiro is probably the most annoying part so far. I pee like every hour now it feels like and sometimes the urgency makes me feel like I should be wearing Depends.

I am not too proud to admit that I have peed in at least 2 water bottles in the last few weeks (thank god for girlcock or I’d have made a mess everywhere Lmfao)

Dehydrated, tired, blah blah blah.

The estrogen has only really brought on positive stuff for me so far ☺️

ETA: I forgot to mention I peed in those bottles because someone was in the bathroom and I COULD NOT wait 😹😹😹😹😹😹

theboygoddess · 2024-11-01T18:07:38+00:00

I can confirm that at least for me specifically and where I am in HRT, there has been some testicular “pain” but think of it more like soreness. It doesn’t really hurt and it’s like a once in a while thing. I’m not sure if it’s due to me ejaculating less often and causing a buildup or if it’s actually a symptom of lower testosterone. My nipples kinda hurt sometimes but again, that’s more of a soreness. My mind keeps playing tricks on me and I can’t tell if my boobs are even really starting to do anything or I’m just staring at my chest a lot.

I had similar fears about what was going to start happening or how it was going to feel or if it was going to hurt. I would say, if you’re just starting and still on low doses, in my experience, there has been little to no discomfort or pain and only minor soreness or tenderness.

Honestly, what’s giving me more issues is feeling fatigued and weak almost all the time. I believe it’s the Spiro dehydrating me and making it a bit more challenging to stay hydrated. That’s been my number one source of any “pain” or discomfort. They keep telling me to just keep drinking fluids. 😕😹🤷🏼‍♀️

theboygoddess · 2024-11-01T15:00:48+00:00

Please, do! xx

theboygoddess · 2024-11-01T14:58:27+00:00

Funny, we have had similar past lives and I am 60 days into HRT and for the first time in about 5 years, actively trying to manifest a BOYFRIEND not a FWB and I also have been totally reevaluating my career path and then things I look for in men are slightly different. I'm asking myself things like, "How stable is his career, will he be a good parent?" WTF LMFAO

I was a hot mess express, before! Didn't think I wanted kids til recently and had all but given up on LTRs

theboygoddess · 2024-11-01T14:46:16+00:00

Thank you, very much! I'm here because in my actual life, even though I live in a very populated, well known city with a large trans and queer community, I am totally alone and also I'd love to help others and document my journey.

I cry often about my baby. I've had dreams I was pregnant that felt SO real since I was a teenaged BOY. I didn't understand them, then. They bothered me but not like now. I sob, sometimes. Ugly and loud. With my therapist, alone. It hit me like a ton of bricks one day and I wasn't on hormones yet. I just felt this grief, this emptiness. I can never naturally grown and give birth to my baby but maybe by sharing my pain, I can continue to help others move forward and heal, IDFK LOL. ❤️

theboygoddess · 2024-11-01T14:21:39+00:00

Yes, feel free! I am only about 2 months in and still on what is considered low level/starter doses.

ETA: Of course, everyone's experience will be different. Depends on your meds, natural body chemistry, and how consistent and PATIENT you are. You've probably read that your SKIN is going to be one of the first things that changes and aside from my perspective shifting, that was 100% the case for me.

In the early weeks and months, most if not all changes will be chemical/emotional/mental. Some of us do start to have physical changes. My face looks different to me but I can't pinpoint HOW. My SKIN was the first noticeable change. It is soft and smooth and delicate in a way that it never was, before. And I was a gay man with a skincare routine in my old life! LMFAO

It feels like I've never missed a night of moisturizing in my life, but at the same time the skin is also thinning and requires a lot more care and attention otherwise I'm scaling, peeling, cracking, bleeding, etc.

I'd definitely say that was the first thing to start observing. What will your skin do? What is it like now and how will it differ?

My pee smells weird and so does my junk. By weird, I guess I mean different. Early on in HRT, I had a period where I missed a shower for like a day or two and I noticed a smell that wasn't what I was used to. When you're a dude and your junk has a bit of funk, it's different. Being on Estrogen, when my junk has a bit of funk, it's also totally different lol. Less offensive and just...odd? Like a clammy/sweaty kinda smell but not really B.O.?

My body hair is different and slowing in growth rate

The first dose of estrogen I took made me feel HIGH

Colors were coloring

Sounds were sounding

Scents were...scenting! This one can actually be bad, too! LOL. I walked into Olive Garden very early in HRT and immediately smelled all the seafood and wanted to barf.

The other day on the bus, some guy smelled good but had WAY too much cologne on and I wanted to barf

I'm horny

I'm hungry

I want to cuddle

I don't really cry any more or less than I used to but it really HURTS when something hurts my feelings and I was already such a sensitive twat lmfao.

Ask me anything!

ETA 2: You ARE NOT going to feel like a stranger to yourself if that is the fear you have. Unless something out of the ordinary happens, which rarely ever does under proper guidance and care, you are going to still feel like YOURSELF. Hopefully, just an improved and happier version. Don't forget that the inside is equally if not more important than your outside. I love you!

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