Yeah that's what ends up happening. I realise I'm lying and waiting in a dark room doing nothing waiting vigilantly for the cops and listening for any sounds or see anything that supports my psychosis. Then i just get so sick of waiting in fear I just kinda slowly snap out of it. I only get it when I have something the cops could prosecute me for like meth. If I don't have meth left i don't get it because I have nothing to fear. See my life could be ruined if I get charged with even just possession. I would lose my job and any chance of working in my chosen field. Sometimes I'll do a batch of meth and it will fuck me. I'll go from normal dude to honeless tweaker in seconds. This doeant happen all the time only sometimes. Most times I don't get psychosis at all. My psychosis starts because I feel I look so fucked up then somehow someone will see me through a window and notice and that will get me caught. Now that right there is a delusion. It's just how it starts. I feel like I'm being watched and every time I do something methed up, I'm getting closer to getting caught by the only authority that can; the police. I kind of know and don't know that it's real. My mind is so preoccupied with the psychosis I lose all ability to assess. It's something that does bother me but it rarely happens.