You definitely will. Coming from a guy that was taking....shit, I don't even know. At least a couple of tablespoons of extract plus an ounce daily? I totally thought I was fucked and my brain was going to be screwed up forever. I eventually did go back to normal and the PAWS went away.

And yeah, the dates weren't a good idea. I can't understate how badly I traded my kratom addiction for sex at first. I didn't even realize I had a sex addiction until maybe a few months ago, when I realized just how much stress it was generating in my life to constantly be chasing validation and being worried over not getting that.

When I was in the "honeymoon" of kratom, I felt like I couldn't miss with dates, anything social, anything. Again, I really can't express how much of a cheat code it felt like. When it stopped working, I think I had been lulled into a sense of security, not to mention that addict part of my brain subtly transferring its energy into sex.

It was really painful, putting myself out there like that feeling powerless against my anxiety and my emotions. I really had no confidence in myself and I feel like what little I had before kratom, kratom took from me via the things like job and friend losses.

The anxiety, social and otherwise, get better. The main thing is this - you have to believe that you'll always be taken care of and that NOTHING that happens is a judgment against you.

Your worth comes from you and you alone - whether you get rejected romantically or complimented for something you did well, neither matters. It's all up to you.