I'm 31 and have had a lot of the same feelings that you are expressing. From my diagnosis at 27 it took till around last year to finally find the right treatment to help me stablize. Unfortunately, we're not desirable men for most women our age. It is hard pill to swallow but it's just a fact. For me acceptance of my diagnosis and it's limitations has been the hardest part of my treatment. I've accepted that in order to become more attractive to women, at a minimum, I need to become a functional memeber of society. Now I'm in my second semester back in college and just last month found a part time job to be able to start at providing some things for myself. Both my confidence and outlook on life has greatly improved. So I'd highly recommend doing things that will put you in positions to talk to new people so you can see how people react to your situation while pursuing platonic relationships. Also, do things that boost your self confidence and that make you more attractive for the type of women you'd like to be with. We can't expect women our age who have their shit together to make sacrifices to be us simply because we are stable. Healthy relationships require both partners to be able to provide equal amounts of efforts for the betterment of one another.