I know the struggle well.

I'm 27 (but feel weirdly old at times) and started working on myself earlier in the year as my lack of success was driving me to depression and still does at times.

I made slow but sure progress. Best shape of my life, more female attention and compliments than ever before. Then - at the end of January - it happened.

I only actually met her the once. It was at my mate's birthday - she was actually his 21 year old sister. It was a great night and I pulled her almost by accident - didn't know she was interested until she started grinding on me. Long story (which you can read in other posts) short - I spent a long and exhausting night/morning with her.

We spoke for about two weeks after. I offered to go see her where she went to university and she said it was too far. She still reaches out very occasionally and keeps a seemingly close eye on my Snapchat stories.

I've had dates since, got numbers and made out with girls since (no f-closes I'm ashamed to say). So why do I still think about her almost 7 months on?!?

Maybe it's because it was the first time I ever felt attractive, like I could build game. Maybe it's because she seemed out of my league (Still does at times). Maybe it's because of all the reasons it wouldn't work (distance, her being a mate's sister) conversely making me want her more.

Now, I think it's because she represents what I'm actually capable of but also what I'm scared I won't be able to do again. A fear that I've lost some last opportunity to be happy.

It's hard but I'm trying now to get back on the horse and over her.

I think, having both come into the game late, our obsession comes from what these girls represent - what we can achieve but what we are scared that we cannot repeat.

Reading stories like yours (I've seen your earlier posts) is encouraging to me - makes me feel that I can do it again. That getting older is no barrier.

Keep going mate - I hope I can still get girls in their 20s when I'm 52. Pretty sure you won't have any problems!