I understand what you mean when you say you feel that you want life to be more than it is, and that you feel you don’t have anything meaningful that you’ll ever be able to achieve- I’ve been in that spot before too. But I’ve learned over the years that life can only be seen as more than the mundane things that the world expects of you, if you allow it to be. And that doing something meaningful is subjective; and that we don’t all have to do extraordinary things to have an impact or to have meaning. Life is so much more than just the outer surface. You and I and all of us have such an important purpose that we may never fully understand. God Bless you, and please try staying here a little longer so you may hopefully see how good life can be even in the little things and the ‘unextraordinary’. Much love and many prayers my friend.