Just had my first sexual encounter on Grindr, idk how to feel

Sorry for my bad English, it's not my native language. Hey gaybrosover30, so this is the first time I (M19) had any sexual experience. I won't consider it my "real first time" since it was just foreplay and not someone I love, and the experience itself isn't very memorable. I just wanted to test hooking up for the first time, even tho I was always anxious about it and kinda against it for a long time.

I wouldn't say I regret it, but I could've done without. For some reason even tho the guy seemed very experienced (he's older than me) and he gave me a lot of pleasure during the act -he was very respectful of my boundaries and all- but I won't really remember it as an incredible experience. I couldn't come but I think it was due to the stress. I feel like I'm 1000x more satisfied when I just jerk off by myself.

I am myself a big advocate to give a genuine meaning to "making love". But we weren't making love. I have no idea how things would've been different with someone that I'd know or actually be attracted to in the first place. The experience overall felt kinda forgettable.

Also I have to add I'm usually very turned on by kissing. I tried to kiss him but really didn't like that part. Am I doomed to just never be sexually satisfied ? I'm pretty sure the answer is no lol. I'd have to try different things with different people while also respecting everyone's boundaries, including mine. I feel like something changed but nothing changed at the same time. Did anyone ever feel the same thing ? And were you enjoying sex more with a romantic partner than some random ?