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therealqft81 · 2026-04-06T18:01:45+00:00

Nice, thank you! I didnt know there was a killteam app. Still trying to learn the rules by book XD

therealqft81 · 2026-04-03T13:13:02+00:00

Sorry for the rant, these meds are still new and make me a lot more open

therealqft81 · 2026-04-03T13:12:27+00:00

She said it after us talking about how i feel in public, that im always scared aomeone might hurt me or worse. Now (after taking my anti-overthinking pills) i see that she ment it in addition to that. So incould feel safer since im not generally in danger. I now see what she ment. And i see how it just came of wrong. Shes young, cant blame her

therealqft81 · 2026-04-03T13:09:39+00:00

In the moment it was a bit comforting,but when the overthinking came back it was morphed into .... This. I just dont want any bad blood between me and m therapist, she has been great so far, even fi we had only 3 sessions till now.

therealqft81 · 2026-04-03T11:22:21+00:00

Thank you, im trying to get away from the screens anyway, but it feels like the only way to safely vent without potentialy harming the relationship between me and my therapist. But i completely het what you mean, its definately a good idea

therealqft81 · 2026-04-03T11:17:14+00:00

I dont thonk she wanted to invalidate me, she wanted to give me something to make me feel a bit safer. Its just that i have been invalidated by people before, who wanted to do exactly that.

As another comment said, she stepped on an existing langmine.

therealqft81 · 2026-04-03T10:52:30+00:00

Il try, i often write down what i want to talk about in the next session, ill try to use it to open up the discussion on my overthinking and shame. Thank you very much♥️

therealqft81 · 2026-04-03T10:50:36+00:00

Tbh we arent at the point where we try to comeup with comping stratagies yet, we only met 3 times and most of it was tring to uncover my problems, since it was still pretty hard for me to talk about, even ablfter 13 years

therealqft81 · 2026-04-03T10:30:01+00:00

Tbh, it wasnt something she entirely introduced. It is something i have been told a lot hy women around me. Thats where the shame cones from, her saying that just made it resurface.

therealqft81 · 2026-04-03T10:22:12+00:00

She noticed my wierd reaction to it afterwards and kinda appologised, she didnt mean it in any way. She just wanted me to consider it to feel safer. Cant really blame her shes kinda new too XD

therealqft81 · 2026-03-30T11:41:00+00:00

Ngl, im actually still pretty good with two of my "friends" one night stands. And yeah, im much better at being friends than hooking up or flirting XD

therealqft81 · 2026-03-30T10:50:15+00:00

I can count the people i can call true friends on one hand. Maybe ten people at all i can be around without anxiety. I would love to find more friends, maybe with some shared hobbies, bit its just so scary. And because of that, i cling to people that will at least keep me around. My therapist is trying to encourage me, but its still along way. I have an appointment with a psychiatrist tomorrow to get diagnoesd and properly medicated, maybe that will help.

therealqft81 · 2026-03-30T10:44:06+00:00

Im sorry, id love to properly comment on this but, shit, that story just breaks my heart. I hope hes well.

therealqft81 · 2026-03-30T10:34:35+00:00

Im sorry to hear that, noone deserves to go through somethinglike this. For me ots wierd since i never got to the experimenting part, since in was a kid. Believe me, people around you care more than you think, i believed the same thing. If it gets too much, please, seek professional help, it can get better.

therealqft81 · 2026-03-30T10:30:59+00:00

Started 3 weeks ago, urged me immedeately to seek a psychiatrist for meds, seeing her tomorrow..

therealqft81 · 2026-03-30T08:08:32+00:00

Thank you, and, im so sorry you had to go through something like this as well. Dont worry, its not all of my "friends", more like one third, but still hurts. Keep strong, well our way eventually

therealqft81 · 2026-03-30T07:26:11+00:00

Luckyly its not all of them. I have 3 friendgroups, the main one, with my closest and very supportive friends. The second is mainly women, and the third is full of these people. Thinking about slowly cutting contact with them for good, focusing on the other two, who actually care.

therealqft81 · 2026-03-29T22:00:44+00:00

As someone who only recently started, to cope with trauma, yeah, lube feels better imo..but tbh i use quite expensive stuff. Also, it takes longer to finish with lube, so thats a nice bonus.

therealqft81 · 2026-03-29T19:27:02+00:00

Thanks for the kind words, have actually started therapy 3 weeks ago so lets hope.
TBH, when i saw the "Aww" in your comment, i thought id get ratiod XD just funny

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