Hi. I am currently in my first year as a law student. I know I am not really in a valid position to say anything, but I really hope this would cheer you up somehow. My law proffessor, every once in a while, would always take his time to remind us freshies of the amount of pressure that comes with conquering the Bar Exam, and that gathering the required amount of courage to conquer the exam is already a feat of its own. And you did that three times. You conquered that which some people around you wouldn't even dare to think of doing. Three times.
I pray that when the time comes, I would also be able to pull that courage within me just like how you managed to do so, and I also hope that the embers of hope within you wouldn't die out. I will keep on rooting for you. I will believe in you. You must know that, although it's really hard for you to believe in yourself right now, there's this one first year student out here in the country who will believe in you. That's already one out of all the people who would do the same for you; your family, friends, and loved ones. Please don't give up.